Random Thought of the Day

[GunnyHighway]

Haha, those look awfully familiar. Glad you enjoy my music posts.

I've been addicted to his channel. All of his hour long+ mixes have been my soundtrack at work to keep me sane. I've grown quite fond of Koda's music in particular.

[IllusionOfHappiness]

I've been addicted to his channel. All of his hour long+ mixes have been my soundtrack at work to keep me sane. I've grown quite fond of Koda's music in particular.

It's a great channel. Lots of chilled out stuff I like to listen to before bed. I'm definitely a Koda fan as well.

[Heelsbythebridge]

Maybe I got too used to the prettiness of Vancouver, but Montreal looks like a dump aesthetically.

[IllusionOfHappiness]

My sister gave me 15lb dumbbells. I'm so weak. They may as well be cinder blocks.
I use 10lbs for squats but I think that's the best I can do right now. Otherwise I can do like...two reps.

[Kirsebaer]

It was probably a bad idea to lower my Lexapro dosage (I wanted to wean off it to try to lose weight). It's been what 2 weeks? and I can already feel that good old depression sneaking back in. I feel like [BEEP] this morning.. low mood, don't feel at all like going to work.. I wish I could spend the whole day in bed. And I'm super self conscious about the way I look these days. Looking at myself naked in the mirror this morning after shower made me wanna cry. I hate what I see to the point where I'd resort to plastic surgeries in a heartbeat if I could afford it. Maybe I have BDD, I dunno.

[IllusionOfHappiness]

PSA: when a girl says she's "not hungry", you need to leave her the [BEEP] alone.

[Heelsbythebridge]

It was probably a bad idea to lower my Lexapro dosage (I wanted to wean off it to try to lose weight). It's been what 2 weeks? and I can already feel that good old depression sneaking back in. I feel like [BEEP] this morning.. low mood, don't feel at all like going to work.. I wish I could spend the whole day in bed. And I'm super self conscious about the way I look these days. Looking at myself naked in the mirror this morning after shower made me wanna cry. I hate what I see to the point where I'd resort to plastic surgeries in a heartbeat if I could afford it. Maybe I have BDD, I dunno.

I don't think you should hunni.. I ran out of medication, and it may just be in my head, but I don't feel as quite right. We should both go back on our meds and at the same dosages- having yourself back is priceless!

*hugs* Why are you feeling insecure? I saw some of your pictures here and you are just gorgeous, even if you were 20 pounds heavier. Not just saying it, you truly are beautiful! I hope you'll come to see what I, and I'm sure your girlfriend and others, do
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I should really stop being so blunt and honest. I got yet ANOTHER email from the emergency counselling department, this time form the behavioural interventionist team. My instructor alerted them, thinking I was going to kill myself. I just sent a couple emails with profuse assurances that I am okay.

The world really does not tolerate me well.

[Kirsebaer]

I don't think you should hunni.. I ran out of medication, and it may just be in my head, but I don't feel as quite right. We should both go back on our meds and at the same dosages- having yourself back is priceless!

*hugs* Why are you feeling insecure? I saw some of your pictures here and you are just gorgeous, even if you were 20 pounds heavier. Not just saying it, you truly are beautiful! I hope you'll come to see what I, and I'm sure your girlfriend and others, do

Thank you so much for your kind words, inane I really appreciate them! We definitely should go back on our meds (in my case go back to the right dosage) my mind seems to function in a completely different way when I'm not on Lexapro.. it's almost like I'm a different person. I wouldn't try to stop taking it if it weren't for the weight gain...

[IllusionOfHappiness]

Getting out of bed is always the worst part of the day.

[Kirsebaer]

Getting out of bed is always the worst part of the day.

True. I wish the day was longer just so that I could sleep 10h every night ...

[Koalafan]

Ahhhh thats better

[SmileyFace]

Row row row your boat, gently down the stream...

[Kirsebaer]

Ahhhh thats better

I don't get invited?

[Koalafan]

I don't get invited?

Aww Kirse you're always invited on my stoner koala adventures!

[IllusionOfHappiness]

True. I wish the day was longer just so that I could sleep 10h every night ...

Ten hours sounds good to me! Since I'm unemployed I've just got depression keeping me in bed, but if I do anything at all with my day, I'm dead to the world so I don't really win there either. When I was working I'd usually sleep for 12 hours Friday night. I'm not taking care of my vitamin deficiencies either so I'm sure that doesn't help. D: