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    A poem i wrote

    A poem I wrote

    A letter to life:

    Everything is dark now
    Not a single flicker of light
    I want to create a spark
    but I'm losing the battle, not matter how hard I fight

    I miss the smile, I used to wear
    Its faded slowly through pain & despair

    Life please, lend me a break
    please stop hurting me
    no more can I take

    I try so hard to put out love & hope
    But at the end of the day, I'm so alone, I can't cope

    My little girl, I'm so sorry mommy cries
    I'm angry that life made me explain to your sweet little soul,
    that your sister is gone & everybody dies

    I keep thinking I deserve it,
    The pain & all the emptiness
    trying to put my life together,
    but none of the pieces fit

    The worst is knowing the happiness that I felt before,
    life came like a villain in the night & crushed my soul to the floor

    The darkness keeps coming now
    I just want to take it away
    But I know I must keep going for the little girl that looks up to me everyday

    So life if you can hear me, I am hanging on by a thread
    I'm no longer living,
    I'm like the walking dead

    Please stop kicking me, while I lay trembling on the ground
    Please stop letting me voice love, when in response, I don't hear a sound

    Above all, please let the light back in,
    for the pain is too much, living alone with nothing but darkness within.

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    Way to go Brookster. Excellent poem. Keep on writing. That is one way to help yourself. Put it down in words. Be it poetry or Blogs or just posts. It all helps.
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    I really like the poem. It's really, really hard in my opinion to raise children, and it's incredibly difficult while you also struggle with anxiety. I really don't think most people have a clue as to how hard it is. A lot of parents go to bday parties and playdates, they have no idea what anxiety even feels like. They might feel a little of the "normal" anxiety that comes with those things but they have no idea what it feels like to someone that's really struggling with anxiety. It's hard, esp because you're often left alone, to deal with it alone.

    Also....a lot of people I've encountered just do not seem to get it. It's all about passing the love on to your kids. That, to me, is what it's really all about. The fact that you have anxiety doesn't stop you from doing that. Imo, you fight through it and you do it anyway. And some people don't seem to recognize that. And that's OK with me. They're not a part of my life. I focus on my kids. And fighting through the anxiety. And trying to continue to spread the love. That's more important to me than anything else.
    You're going to lose people in your life, and realize that no matter how much time you spent with them or how often you told them you loved them, it will never seem like it was enough.

    Hug the ones you love.

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    Grief can be so hard. Especially when you're trying to be strong for someone else.

    When you're in the midst of pain, I know it seems insurmountable. It's hard to keep walking, but if you do, the pain will lessen. Grief hurts and takes time because it's a healing process.

    Thank you for sharing your poem.
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