My big fear is that now that I have had brain surgery is that I will continue to get worse and now I am so scared of even going back to see how the head has healed I do not want to know anything else and I have no intentions on ever having brain surgery again . I just know I am miserable physically and mentally and scared of every ache and pain because I do have other health issues going on..
I keep telling myself WHY bother really WHY? will another surgery help me Nope I don't believe so and then people will just dump on me again saying I am looking for an Illness when in fact I sure did not fake a brain tumor I so wish I had!! I didn't ask for a total hysterectomy nor a gallbladder surgery or the other health issues so people are not helping me at all only making me want to fade away and get this life over with.