Me and my ex who we remained friends with mutually agreed to no longer be friends he has expressed from day one that my religious views would be a barrier in a relationship or just friendship. We decided dating was not the best and like I said stayed friends. Recently he has told me he feels I have improved on my empathy towards others and I guess caring more. I started attending support groups with him and it brought us closer which was good. But well I was in the hospital for medical issues he stayed with me that night we discussed are wrong doings well dating and if we felt dating would be better now. So I gave a week to think about it and agreed to date him on a Friday by Saturday morning he and I broke up. He later told me he only wanted to date me for the mere fact he wanted to feel adult feelings and have intercourse with me nothing else and when he tried cuddling with me because of my past I couldn?t lay facing him so he grew mad. But now he?s saying he doesn?t want to be my friend something about I post on Facebook a lot or something he really wasn?t making much sense I noticed him recently expressing to me that he feels he?s going to have a bipolar manic episode because his brother is returning home and other family issues. He refused to talk to any one and said he doesn?t need another pill to solve the issue. I?m having major anxiety and self hatred towards my self as I know I made my mistakes with him as taking advantage and I Recognized that I was and majorly improved and he was the one to point that out. All I know things were going well and today he expressed because we don?t laugh together much it means a friendship isn?t meant to be he?s always had weird theories which infuriated me because 99% of them were contradicting on his behalf. I mean I guess the anxiety is coming from the mere fact I feel I did something wrong he did not express I did anything wrong just the laughing issue he?s always complained I don?t laugh I don?t smile he would bicker at me to try and smile more so I feel it?s all my fault like maybe if only I was a happier person or if I was not such a serious person. He said maybe one day destiny will bring us back together? But if it doesn?t pretty much don?t bother messaging and then he disconnected all friendship yet he did not on Facebook so I?m confused am I supposed to or is he. I?ve been very deep in thought over this he said he was scared to do this to me due to the drastic change going on in my life from my step dad having cancer to moving to my first place to dealing with having hardly any friends. I?m also surprised I am hurt by this but did not beg for a friendship most people I would have I guess everything is just so confusing and my anxiety is bad we always had good times from Dave and busters cj Barrymore?s the movies partridge creek the other mall around me bowling and or bars. I?m just conflicted and feel like I?m spewing on with venting so Is it normal to feel so confused or is this something I?m over thinking.
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