It's not that I feel I've been constantly [bleep] on, that's not it at all. I feel blessed in a lot of ways, like I said before. I just feel like I'm left alone to battle my demons by myself. I'm on my own, there is no higher power watching out for me, for the most part. And I see god working in other people's lives, I see other people struggle and it seems like they're being helped along the way (not everyone, but some).
Regardless of whether anyone agrees with me or not, no sane person can argue that all of us suffer equally. There are people who suffer much, much worse than me of course, in ways that I can't even imagine. And that's my point. My point is that there is needless suffering, and no one wins, no one is better off, no one is stronger for having gone through it, no one is closer to god for having gone through it....and yet it still happens. And for what? I don't see how anyone with two brain cells to rub together can look at the needless, pointless suffering and not see that god has turned their back on some of his children. How can anyone not see that....it boggles the mind.
You're going to lose people in your life, and realize that no matter how much time you spent with them or how often you told them you loved them, it will never seem like it was enough.
Hug the ones you love.
It's those who struggle who truly know what life is all about.
Jesus did not having things handed to Him. He even knew He was going to die! He stepped up and still changes the world.