I'm sick and tired of being me. I've been shy for most of my 27 years of life, and I don't know if I should blame this part of my personality for my other new personality disorders.
Should I blame it for my lack of passion when it comes to thinking about my own future? I say this because I have no motivation what so ever when it comes to going back to college. I would love to, but I just stop and wonder why? What good will come of it? Because after all I can't find a major that I like. And what about a husband and/or kids? Those are issues that I truly don't care about.
And then there's my job. My frustrating job, the one in which I wonder every single day what I'm doing there. I believe my boss hired me only out of pity since I wasn't having any luck any where else. Now I can only hope that with the experience I gained there I can find a new job. At least something to look forward to.
And my family...my adorable family. I actually have a good relationship with both of my parents, and two wonderful siblings. But I just feel like their suffocating me because of their own problems. I live with my parents, and help my mother with my sick grandmother..but I wish I could just leave. Disappear, or forget everything and never look back.
Haha, maybe all I need is a really long vacation.