My therapist appointment, that is. I've only been to her twice, I know that's not a long time, but it's just so damn hokey; I can't stand it. I've developed a genuine contempt for the woman, telling me to check out some moronic self-help book from the library and chart my "irrational automatic thoughts" and replace them with rational ones. I can't do it, the thoughts are just as described; AUTOMATIC!
I know the next appointment will be more of the same nonsense, then I'll be furious about wasting more money. I also know that if I call and cancel, I'll feel like such a failure that I doubt I'll live another month.
It's about 2:12PM at the time I'm writing this and I'd have to call by 5 to give sufficient notice since I'd be cancelling an 11AM Monday morning appointment, so by the time anyone reads this I'll have made up my useless, diseased mind. Ohh well, I didn't have anything better to do anyway.