Very rough night for depression
Socially inept Koala
Very rough night for depression
Very tired, so I should just go to sleep. But... I'm growing more and more anxious tonightEasily offended and hurt by little things.
killer of conversations
For someone who doesn't say very much, why is it that the few times I do open my mouth I end up saying all the wrong things?
Made an uncomfortable realization, and that there's no way I can finish this in any better a position than when I started.
The Awkward Conversationalist
I have to work tonight but I'm intolerably anxious right now. Should be fun...
And this is going to be me all throughout the long-ass board meeting we're having on Thursday:
I feel like an asshole because I ditched class this morning and bf and I went and played around in downtown Boston instead... Whoops :/
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
you made the right choiceKeddy
you deserve some time to decompress.
Makes me a bit sad that I won't be hanging out with my boyfriend on Fridays now due to my internship
We do need a wee bit of time apart though... for me to really gather my thoughts and try to work down to being myself and feeling content with life again. Anxiety has been making me go crazy.
Life bothers me. I had a brief, but pressing thought of taking my life again.
But then realized how much my life has improved, because it feels like it's been so long since I've had that thought. I used to ruminate on it everyday, fantasizing about it till I fell asleep. The past 10 days, I've been falling asleep not really even thinking, just feeling comfortable and at peace.
The Awkward Conversationalist
I'm glad you didn't
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
The Awkward Conversationalist
Ugh... doctor's appointment tomorrow... I found something weird near my ribcage and they're going to check it out. They think it's a cyst. I am a hypochondriac but there's definitely something there... Let's just hope I don't have to go through Surgery Number Three this year... and it's only May. Good Lord.
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
I'm glad you didn't
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What's bothering me now is not having a Toronto address to apply to jobs with. I couldn't get a single reply in Montreal until I put in a local address. Ugh! And of course my decision on whether to stay in MTL or move to TO is due very, very soon. At some point, doing nothing has become a decision with substantial effect on its own.
Just looked at my bank account and am freaked. I haven't even paid my Mastercard bill with the plane ticket expenses yet. Rent in Toronto for the space I'm renting is only $500, compared to here being $850... Even if I am more comfortable here, that's a pretty big jump, and my options for jobs would be wider as Toronto is Anglo. But I'm starting to like Montreal.
I just want to show everyone around me how happy I am right now but I'm afraid it will annoy them or make them upset.
life---><---me
The Awkward Conversationalist
Phew. They said it doesn't need to be removed and it's not harmful. They just said to keep an eye on it and come back if it ever gets bigger or starts to hurt but they don't think it will and it might go away on its own. Good, now I can relax.
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
I think I'm moving to Toronto next month. I'm going to really, really miss Montreal. And having any semblance of privacy (would be in a house with 8 other girls). After a bit of a rocky start, I think MTL folks are really nice.
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Why does life have to be so complicated?
The Awkward Conversationalist
[BEEP] you, computer!! I'm trying to download music here and you're being a dick!!
That's what I get for downloading music illegally...
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
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