- PTSD makes u afraid of people, even people u trust, because if they say something u don’t off-hand understand, hear or “get”, ur brain automatically jumps to fear-mode and assumes they’re going to hurt u and then u freeze up and either say a slew of terrible things to fight back or u die in physical chest pains for like 20 minutes
- imagine every day, nearly every where u go, anything a person says, any movie you see, or any book you read having high chances of possibly reminding you of when you were raped or beaten. like, i am a complete torn-up person on the inside.
- to u, with PTSD, everyone, even people u love, movies u love, artists u love, has the high potential to make u afraid of them by triggering you on accident.
- it's hard to try and explain to everyone u know how certain things affect you; it's hard because sometimes people u love won't accept that u need special care when dealing with social interactions--it's hard when people don't take your condition seriously, or think it's funny to trigger you (which happens more than i ever thought it would...)
- it's hard to have a break-down in front of your family or boyfriend/girlfriend because u have to deal with the anxiety that ur being "annoying" or a "problem" as well as (in my case) feeling embarrassed about crying or having a panic attack in front of a person.
- it's hard to watch ur friends feel sorry when they accidentally trigger u; it's hard to not know what to do to make them comfortable because u can't even make urself comfortable
- it's hard to feel afraid/like [BEEP] every. single. day. forever.
Does anyone else feel this way???