I saw really bad things being posted on the site by a sick sex-spam-bot and feel really nauseated and shaky
I just read something that triggered me, I know the past is the past and it's better left that way, but it brought up feelings about having been cheated on and watching my past partners flirt with other women. It brought up my trust issues too.
I just remember my last partner saying "You only look good in pictures, not IRL" and that was his excuse for saying other people looked better. People rarely use the words "attractive" or "pretty" about me and they talk a lot about other women being beautiful in front of me.
It just sucks to have been in a relationship with someone who was constantly saying other people were gorgeous but telling me that I didn't look very good.
I apologize in advance, this is a rant, but I am very triggered and furious as all hell right now.
This is not directed at anyone here nor is it trying to start drama, this is a personal thing.
Second trigger of the day: Being called out publicly for something that should have been kept private. It also wasn't my fucking fault. Anyone who blames me for doing anything shitty to my last partner is a fucking asshole and doesn't even know the whole fucking story so why would you call me out on it without knowing what he fucking did to me? He is NOT the victim in this situation! He was an abuser and a sociopath and I'm not sorry he's gone. Anyone who is all like "Aww poor guy" about him needs to, excuse my French, GO [BEEP] YOURSELF. I'm not sorry. He was the fucking spawn of Satan and if he fooled you into thinking he was a good man, I fucking pity you and you need to go get some professional help.
I am not the kind of person you want to piss off, you are fucking playing with fire here.
Waking up to find out that someone I really trusted has screwed me over big time.
Getting a random text from a random number.
Being set off by a passive aggressive comment that was not very subtly directed at me. This person did it intentionally too.
I'm so done with people. I don't need anyone but myself.