So on November 29th I tried to take my own life by overdosing on a bunch of anti-depressants. Failed clearly. Was rushed to the ER and then transferred the next day to the Psych part of the Hospital for 5 days. Found out that I've been misdiagnosed Bipolar since I was 18. Turns out I actually have Borderline Personality Disorder along with my original Panic Disorder & Depression. So far I'm doing better. On new medicine. Abilify & Cymbalta. Had to stop taking the Atarax though because Anxiety meds never work well with me. Was making me very irritable and drowsy. The medicine I love the most right now is Abilify because it makes me want to get up and live life. It's helped me greatly with the Cymbalta. Hopefully I can continue to heal and get better. I've had a couple of triggers I've been trying to cope with though such as family related and social.
I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling. I know what it's like to want to end your own life. I was in the same boat recently so I completely sympathize with you.
I'm glad your new medications are working well. I was on Abilify many years ago and it made me very irritable and aggressive. I'm glad to hear that's not the case for you.
I have PTSD and family and social things are triggers for me as well. I hope you are learning good coping skills. Family can be one of the most triggering things for anyone with a mental health disorder.
I hope that you continue to recover and do well. I wish you the best.
So far so good. Was upped to 90mg Cymbalta and put on 1 & half Klonopins. Haven't had a panic attack nor chest pains since. I have however developed high blood pressure since the attempt & need to go on medicine for it. Still have my demon days but overall better than before. Just coping better.
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