I'm so angry. I'm so sad. I'm so defeated. I feel like life is beating me down. Between the loss of my baby, the decline in my relationship, money issues, family issues, and worrying for my daughter... I can't take it anymore. I'm tired of people telling me to pray. I can't pray anymore. I'm tired of people telling me that it'll get better. When? I need relief. Gosh I just want to wake up and not have tears rolling uncontrollably down my face on my way to work. I want to smile and mean it. I want to feel safe. I want my life back. I'm afraid I'm not ever going to feel ok. Stress is physically making me sick. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm out of energy. I'm not okay.