A poem I wrote
A letter to life:
Everything is dark now
Not a single flicker of light
I want to create a spark
but I'm losing the battle, not matter how hard I fight
I miss the smile, I used to wear
Its faded slowly through pain & despair
Life please, lend me a break
please stop hurting me
no more can I take
I try so hard to put out love & hope
But at the end of the day, I'm so alone, I can't cope
My little girl, I'm so sorry mommy cries
I'm angry that life made me explain to your sweet little soul,
that your sister is gone & everybody dies
I keep thinking I deserve it,
The pain & all the emptiness
trying to put my life together,
but none of the pieces fit
The worst is knowing the happiness that I felt before,
life came like a villain in the night & crushed my soul to the floor
The darkness keeps coming now
I just want to take it away
But I know I must keep going for the little girl that looks up to me everyday
So life if you can hear me, I am hanging on by a thread
I'm no longer living,
I'm like the walking dead
Please stop kicking me, while I lay trembling on the ground
Please stop letting me voice love, when in response, I don't hear a sound
Above all, please let the light back in,
for the pain is too much, living alone with nothing but darkness within.