I'm very scared. My mind is all over the place. I can't separate reality from real fears anymore. I wake up depressed and feel like I can't even drive myself to work. I want to lay in bed and turn off all the lights and sleep so that I don't feel. I don't even know why I'm writing this. I wish something or someone could help me. I feel so desperate for relief. Why do I deserve this? I don't know what to do.