I just posted this in the "What are you listening to?" thread, but then realised it was probably even more appropriate to post here. I may be feeling a touch down and despondent.
I wrote about this a couple of months ago. Its still relevant.
God I love this song. Love this clip...
I've spent a lot of time hiding in toilets... had some very significant things happened in them. Some sad & Lonely times.. some exciting.. some funny, some terrifyingly awful & scary.
That's just life.
Irrespective of race/gender/status/religion/age... we are all humans and we all piss and shit. That much I know is true. So I guess piss and [BEEP] is an equaliser that gives me comfort.
Of course we try to defy that by separating toilets. Because we are "different" and we need to protect. there I go complicating thing with a more socially acceptable alternate perspective. I cant switch it off. I need an escape to break the looping thoughts... like Jewels mesmerising voice and beautiful crooked toothed smile. Even though I have no ****ing idea who she REALLY is. It's the ideal that matters isn't it? Gotta believe in something.
Never knew who sang this song or what it was even called. But still I managed to find it. Modern song with a very old feel to it. Hard not to like it. Even though I am not into this type of music at all. I could imagine someone like Edith Piaf singing this song many decades ago. So why not give everybody a little bit of love.
Monday comes, and it feels like the end of the line
There's nothing to say, there's nowhere to go
There's no one to listen
Monday comes, I decide to reclaim what is mine
In spite of myself, I'm dying to know
What's across the road? What's behind the wall?
What's around the corner?
And what will it take 'til I find my way?
Will it be today? Will it be too late?
Wait 'til you see what's next
Just beyond the hill, just along the river
There's something that's pulling me out the door
Try for something more, try for something great
And wait 'til you see what's next
Step by step, when it's hard just to see or to hear
A ripple of doubt, a slack in the pace
A small hesitation
Step by step, then at last, when the fog starts to clear
I open my eyes, I'm ready to see
What's across the road, what's behind the wall
What's around the corner
And what if it's not what I thought I'd see?
What if it's not for me? Chalk it up to faith
And wait 'til you see what's next
Just beyond the hill, just along the river
You thought that you knew how the path would turn
Something more to learn, open up the gate
And wait for the story you've never seen
Wait for the blue on the bough
Wait, there's a flicker across the screen
Coming soon
Coming now
Just across the road, just behind the wall
Just around the corner
A new bit of history there to write
Something you all might underestimate
But wait 'til you see what's next
Just beyond the hill, just along the river
We're perched on the edge of the great abyss
What you can't dismiss or anticipate
Just wait, wait 'til you see what's next
Sounds creep softly into my ears. Deafening as it's exploding in my head.
No silent peace. My head keeps making symphonies of deluded thoughts.
Thoughts and dreams and music.
Streaming endless, they are stuck in my head!
Open nerves, they're killing me.
Enlarging everything.
My mind explodes; it's burning up and scaring me.
Nothing feels the same, So strong it shuts me down, so strong I lost control.
Emotions creep slowly into my heart, not just my own, I pick up every signal.
Inflamed and sore. My heart keeps making tragedies of diminutive things.
My everything hurts!
My system burns!
Sounds and words and memories.
They captured me, they're stuck in my head!
Open nerves, they're killing me.
Enlarging everything.
My mind explodes; it's burning up and scaring me.
Nothing feels the same. So strong it shuts me down.
Open nerves!
They're showing me the truth by force. My body's completely drained.
And primitive emotions can thrive. Goodbye 'control'.
I feel more pain.
My system forces me to.
A mental twist to fear all I can become... I can become!
Open nerves, they're killing me.
Enlarging everything.
My mind explodes; it's burning up and scaring me.
Nothing feels the same.
As it shuts me down. A signal I can't defy.
They're showing me the truth by force. My body's completely drained.
And primitive emotions can thrive. Goodbye 'control'. Goodbye illusion...