Random Thought of the Day

[Nyctophilia]

My friend sent me this really weird video and it's led me down a weird niche video rabbit hole:

World leaders as Hogwarts students in an 80s sitcom

Are they just pulling prompts out of a hat lol?

[Nyctophilia]

Watching this vlog from an Ex-Sims YouTuber where they talk about how they're getting divorced and their husband cheated on them a bunch of times. Very emotional video. I think they've developed an alcohol problem. They've spoken a bunch about how they have BPD so I think this sort of thing is probably pretty common for people with that disorder. Supposedly people with BPD often end up dating narcissists or people with NPD and also people with avoidant attachment styles which he definitely has (like he left, they got back together after a month or something, and then he broke up with her again over text saying he'd cheated a bunch before,) and also has AvPD apparently. People with BPD usually have an anxious attachment pattern afaik as well. AvPD well it's in the name of the disorder lol 'avoidant personality disorder.'

I also know in reverse that I'm very avoidant in general that's 98% of my life lol.

It's often normal for avoidant people to dissociate. It's a strategy to down regulate activation in the nervous system and to create space in the connection when it feels like too much.

As an avoidant there is a deep involvement with your inner landscape. If an avoidant is deep in their inner processes and they are interrupted, their response may seem blunt and cold. This is because the interruption feels abrupt and that is reflected in how their response feels to others.

Avoidant people do desire connection, they just need space to make transitions from their internal worlds and the external world. Avoidant people also need time and space to decompress from the stress they feel from being around others. Moving from intense internal focus to a more relational focus is challenging, but with understanding and mindfulness, the transition can become more fluid.

Lol yup. That's why I stopped listening to music in public although I'm not sure it really helped that much and now I avoid being in public. 😂 There's a lot of stuff I don't relate to as well though in online descriptions. Some descriptions are clearly trying to paint this kind of high functioning Christian Grey/Patrick Bateman stereotype. (I mean that's a loose definition of high functioning but you know what I mean. Like they have issues interpersonally and in their head but their lives are somewhat superficially successful instead of just a complete trainwreck.) I also don't think I've been in control of most of my relationships.

But specifically in a romantic context I've also attracted people who became very in love with and obsessed with me quickly where I wasn't on the same page emotionally. One guy really went off the deep end and they'd only known me a couple of months. It's also kind of easy for me to lose attraction and feel trapped not just romantically in general. I avoid lots of things because I don't want to feel trapped/controlled and usually obsess over feeling controlled. Since I'm anxious the coping mechanism I use for that is avoidance.

It's quite counterproductive that people with conflicting attachment styles often end up in relationships. But then most secure people would be put of by avoidant/dismissive behaviour and body language.

Avoidant is usually split into two (dismissive and anxious) as well sort of like schizoid and AvPD but I feel like a lot of people have traits of both and fluctuate but yeah.

[Nyctophilia]

More insane white nationalist/anti-LGBT [BEEP] (the sexual neurosis tends to be part of the package) has ended up on my timeline....

They're against only one because they're satanic and support the INVERSION of what is good and beautiful. They hate natural healthy male female sexuality and they promote perversion.
We don't have to oppose natural healthy male female sexuality to oppose the INVERSION of it.

They're pushing for it on both end5, BBC worship for females, cuckolding for the males.

Honestly who is promoting this? Who is the 'they'? as a [BEEP] non-binary person who uses they/them pronouns with a sexual interest in feminisation and straight > gayish male mindcontrol stories. (One of they/them so to speak.) I still personally hate cuckold stuff* and porn that stereotypes black men as being some kind of hyper masculine stereotype. I don't even like for the guy to lose attraction to women, having sex with someone with a strapon where there's a later comparison with 'real dicks' where it's implied it's better (not a masochist) anything where a woman is implying she doesn't want the guy anymore because he's too feminine and now she's going to find a 'real man' eg back to the not liking cuckold stuff. There are black men and black people in general who dislike the racial stereotyping too. It is created for straight white guys with a fetish. As with most fetishes it's based on taboo.





It's almost like people have diverse opinions and preferences.

*Oh I've played around with the idea of women cucking guys or guys dressing up as women to cuck guys before. (There's a really old book like that actually which I didn't read but heard about I mean like a century or more ago I don't remember the title.) I find that fun. I made some Sims to do something similar with two female Sims. So that is one scenario I find fun actually. InVeRsSIoN as you say. What's inverted about a black guy cucking a white guy? The status quo agrees with that form of sexual hierarchy already.

I just don't think they really understand Satan.

or you just like bbc and there's no conspiracy.

Oh boy here we go.

You said it yourself

"I'm not denying it probably feels good
bbc is objectively bigger

Just because black men are bigger than our men doesn't mean I'm going to try *anything*. I'm loyal to my people.

LOL. why are they all like this though? It's not even 'white men are hotter' which you'd expect from them given their politics. They've reduced guys to their dicks. It's like this:

https://lawsuit.org/general-law/repu...r-pornography/

With more than 4.7 Million transgender porn related Google searches each month (per Ahrefs.com), do Republicans represent those searching most? The answer seems to be a clear YES.

Another thing I'm seeing is clear fetish accounts interacting with far right political accounts so they're just stuck in this kind of horror movie feedback loop.

And yeah I find the stereotype unattractive honestly. It's like the opposite direction of what turns me on... In fact I even read bimbofication/feminisation stories with women as well.

Some guys are just gay and trying to appeal to men. Some people are trans/non-binary. It's a very low percentage that are exclusively attracted to men and hasn't changed much throughout history.

There's a lot of guys who do this sort of thing probably to [BEEP] around often, but also it works as fanservice and some guys are very aware of that. Not just recently but it's gotten a bit more obvious over time:





I can't find the video now and I know she deleted some but Kat Blaque talked about how she'd go to parties where guys would hit on her and flirt with her but only when cis women were around lol. To get their attention. Also guys who make out with guys at parties. And they'd id as bisexual/pansexual etc to signal certain political views to women.

They're in a bubble so they haven't realised the supply and demand.

Another variant of this is the far right article where they talk about how the media is trying to influence white guys to sleep with trans women.

Also like the Abby Shapiro part of this video:



edit: and also yeah it's kind of funny because he's British and it's all Americans talking about the downfall of America haha. You fought a war over this I believe.

She frames it as society trying to force her to find Harry Styles in a dress attractive.

'They're trying to force me to have sex with them/be attracted to them... I think' is the underlying issue in so much of politics now.

Anyway Abby Shapiro should be more worried about Tumblr...:



Comment from fake Abby Shapiro account:

We can be happy together strange even if we are different I know we can be so happy living a modest life in America together

I love that the gays don't hate Classically Abby they just wish she was a lesbian lmao

I hope she never discovers this stuff honestly lol.

[Heelsbythebridge]

Getting hot! They're back!

[Nyctophilia]

The YouTube suggestions are getting increasingly unhinged and aesthetically specific and also feel like it's parodying me lol:



"OK well you're not supposed to have noticed this much black mirror."

"Just because I've recently listened to/watched a bunch of Cradle of Filth videos, 70s/80s Rush music videos, and Ethel Cain music videos doesn't mean I asked for this."

What even is this video? His commentary is really boring lol.

Horror films have such predictable character archetypes Megan and Roxanne seem like the two lead characters in Jennifer's Body.

[Heelsbythebridge]

This is so dreamy. I can see why some people love life.

We need more of this! CHEMISTRY

Actually no, this is a bit too much for me. My heart might explode.

[Heelsbythebridge]

I do not like how he's being treated.

I read further about what happened tonight.

Jesus F Christ

[Nyctophilia]

Lol what the [BEEP] is a woke soundtrack?

Just this track on loop forever:



Hikaru Utada came out as non-binary right? So I guess Kingdom Hearts is a woke game now hahaha



Going to make a video game called This Game is Woke and then make it purposefully appealing to people who write [BEEP] like this but have the marketing throw people off completely so they don't buy it.

The issue with this is that tons of music has themes that could be described as 'woke' (with it's incredibly vague co-opted definitions,) and also lots of left wing musicians.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xnwTNwjxQxI

When I am a man
I will be an astronaut
And find Peter Pan

Oh my God Kate Bush you'll never be a man!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0dVFFOgClY

You were my husband, my wife, my heroine

Unacceptable.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPeDqTCJk3U

I was once a boy.
'Til I cut my penis off
And I grew a hairy skull
Of stubborn fire

Then I was a girl.
'Til I sewed my hole up
And I grew a hairy heart
Of dark desire
But

There's no answer. just surrender
Send all your barriers into the fire

Oh my goodness.

Some of those that work forces
Are the same that burn crosses

Clearly an antifa song.

I won't forget when Peter Pan came to my house, took my hand
I said I was a boy
I'm glad he didn't check
I learned to fly, I learned to fight
I lived a whole life in one night

No wonder Jordan Peterson hates Peter Pan. (Patrick Wolf was into Peter Pan too symbolically lol and has a song about Peter Pan.)

He says, "oh no, no, can't you see?"
When I was a girl, my mom and I, we always talked
And I picked flowers everywhere that I walked
And I could always cry, now even when I'm alone I seldom do
And I have lost some kindness
But I was a girl, too
And you were just like me, and I was just like you

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L62LtChAwww

But a woman is a changeling, always shifting shape
Just when you think you have it figured out
Something new begins to take
What strange claws are these scratching at my skin?
I never knew my killer would be coming from within
I am no mother, I am no bride, I am king

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hkNl3pq1twE

I'm not your woman
I'm not your man
I am something
That you'll never understand.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SadUxosyNJY

It started at the age of four
My mother went to the grocery store
Went sneaking through her bedroom door
To find something in a size four

Sugar and spice and everything nice
Wasn't made for only girls
GI Joe in panty hose
Is making room for the one and only

King for a day, princess by dawn
King for a day in the leather thong
King for a day, princess by dawn
Just wait 'til all the guys get a load of me

My daddy threw me in therapy
He thinks I'm not a real man
Who put the drag in the drag queen?
Don't knock it until you've tried it

Sugar and spice and everything nice
Wasn't made for only girls
GI Joe in panty hose
Is making room for the one and only

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5d6s9QUxpU

I'm more than a woman, more than a man
I feel larger than life, you must understand
When I was a little boy, Malibu Baribe was my favorite toy
Now there is just no Mistaking, I'm a woman
Just awaking, I feel alive,
A new rebirth, It cost a lot but I think it's worth it

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qZuxPKUVGiw

And not the other color so police think
They have the authority to kill a minority
[BEEP] that shit, 'cause I ain't the one
For a punk motherfucker with a badge and a gun
To be beatin' on, and thrown in jail
We can go toe-to-toe in the middle of a cell

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=31GjRnXfUjo

So I pull over to the side of the road
I heard, "Son, do you know why I'm stopping you for?"
?Cause I'm young and I'm black and my hat's real low?
Do I look like a mind reader, sir? I don't know
Am I under arrest or should I guess some more?
"Well, you was doing 55 in a 54
License and registration and step out of the car
Are you carrying a weapon on you? I know a lot of you are."
I ain't steppin' out of shit, all my paper's legit
"Well, do you mind if I look around the car a little bit?"
Well, my glove compartment is locked, so is the trunk in the back
And I know my rights, so you gon' need a warrant for that
"Aren't you sharp as a tack?
You some type of lawyer or something?
Somebody important or something?"
Well, I ain't passed the bar, but I know a little bit
Enough that you won't illegally search my shit
"Well, we'll see how smart you are when the K9 come!"
I got 99 problems, but a [BEEP] ain't one ? hit me!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khMMfOQbAMo

Down the 303 at the end of the road
Flashing lights - exclusion zones
And it made me think it's not just the stones
That they're guarding

As the sun rose on the beanfield
They came like wolf on the fold
And no, they didn't give a warning
They took their bloody toll

I seen a pregnant woman
Lying in blood of her own
I seen her children crying
As the police tore apart their home

And no they didn't need a reason
It's what your votes condone
It seems they were committing treason
By trying to live on the road

Written about this:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Battle_of_the_Beanfield

The Battle of the Beanfield took place over several hours on 1 June 1985, when Wiltshire Police prevented The Peace Convoy, a convoy of several hundred New Age travellers, from setting up the 1985 Stonehenge Free Festival in Wiltshire, England. The police were enforcing a High Court injunction obtained by the authorities prohibiting the 1985 festival from taking place.[2] Around 1,300 police officers took part in the operation against approximately 600 travellers.[1]

Dozens of travellers were injured,[1] and 537 travellers were eventually arrested.[1] This represents one of the largest mass arrest of civilians since at least the Second World War,[4] possibly one of the biggest in English legal history.[5]

The Earl of Cardigan testified in court against Wiltshire Police. His testimony proved vital in supporting the allegation that police violence had been excessive. He was criticised by several national newspapers for acting as a witness against Wiltshire Police; Bill Deedes' editorial in The Daily Telegraph claimed he was a class traitor. Consequently, the Earl successfully sued for defamation.[15]

And so on.

[Doseone]

@Nyctophilia

Kaki King is great.

I want to win the lottery solely so I can have a room that I fill with statues of Hindu deities.

[Nyctophilia]

Sneako's so uncomfortable that he finds Shoeonhead funny lol. Like getting mad that she keeps making him laugh.

https://twitter.com/shoe0nhead/statu...06723462950913

shoeonhead:

its very tsundere

🤣

It's actually really upsetting to see his normal human behavior, the bare minimum need to be happy with your fellow human, get pushed back down by his... Idk what you call it, but whatever's wrong with him is pushing his humanity down. It's so wierd

Yep really lost. He's just trying to be 'masculine'

He wants to be normal so bad but now he's locked into the shtick lol

It's an interesting psychological case study.

[Nyctophilia]

@Doseone

Yeah she has some tracks I like a lot:







Uses fingerstyle technique too which is unusual/interesting.

[Otherside]

Seeing that that twonk is back in the news for once again travelling to stupid places. The same very stupid place that he ended up being airlifted out of by the British Government, because it was now under the control of the Taliban.

And for some reason, he felt he needed to return to Afghanistan, because who doesn't think "You know what, I'm going to go on holiday to Afghanistan" at somepoint in there lives. And in what is apparently a shocking twist, he has now been taken hostage by the Taliban. Quelle surprise!

So now here the UK government is. Negotiating with terrorists, for the release of the village idiot who put himself into this situation, because he didn't learn why flying to Afghanistan was a stupid decision the first time.

...just, why are we doing this? Seriously. "Oh, but he's a British citizen, we should intervene". Can there not be a moron exemption or something? You are free to be a moron if you so wish. Just don't expect the British government to be wasting time, money and effort to dig your [BEEP] out of the consequences of the stupid as hell decision you made to fly to somewhere like Afghanistan for your holiday.

(And how in hell can we end up instantly negotiating for idiots, but leave Nazanin Radcliffe as a political pawn of Iran for years? No damn sense.)

Edit - I hope it doesn't need to be said, but don't go on holiday to Afghanistan, Iraq, Syria, Somalia, etc...

But then anyone with any bloody sense can figure this out.

[Heelsbythebridge]

I remember 2019, hearing Montreal scream in joy when the TORONTO Raptors passed another playoff round.

The division is overrated, I lived through 2010, I know we will pull through. We are stronger together

[Heelsbythebridge]

He married us. He signed on for 8 years. He is committed, he wouldn't have agreed to live with us for that long if he wasn't!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Heelsbythebridge]

What a good boy. It's not about winning, but who you win with.