Stressed...sigh!!!!
Stressed...sigh!!!!
life---><---me
Pretty low. Can't sleep, I had a strange dream / sort of nightmare and I can't go back to sleep. And it's almost time to wake up for the day, anyway. I hate this time of year. I hate this day that's coming up. I hate this whole entire month. I just....want to take some sort of sleeping pill and wake up a month from now, seriously.
I'm so goddamned broken. There is no fixing this, there is no answer, if there was I would've found it by now.
Pickin' and Grinnin'!
im feeling excited for my trip! will be nice to see the friends I made there during my touring days.....lol
Better, slightly. I'm cautiously optimistic that I'm going to start feeling better and get through this weekend. My kids always take my mind off of things, I focus on them, esp more when we're together on my weekends....just because we talk, and catch up a lot, on what's going on with them, and we interact, we do things together the whole entire weekend so I don't have time to worry about my own struggles. I think that's good for me, for them, for all of us. They're doing really well. We miss each other. It's good to see them...I wish I got to see them more often. Was good to see them laugh around the dinner table tonight with my parents. They're good kids. They're so, so much more than I deserve and I feel like I'm blessed to be their dad and have them in my life.
Drunk 'n' tired.
sleepy
Angry and sad and ashamed and guilty
I should probably see my doctor but I'm too scared.
life--->
Socially inept Koala
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Really, really low. I've tried to distract myself all day and it's worked but you can only do that for so long. I haven't been this low in a long time.
What exactly are you afraid of if you saw your doctor? I know people have this thing about doctors. The last people we ever really want to see. There are just those times we simply have to give in and admit to ourselves we have to get to a doctor. Then just make an appointment and get it over with. Easy to fear the worst. We have all done the same before. For various reasons. Come the end of the day the visit to the doctor was not that bad. Then we wonder why we worried so much. Tough time for you right now. A little bit of help might be all you need.
The Lovable Irish Rogue
Yup. I should just get over myself.
life--->
Not a case of getting over yourself. Right now things are tough for you. Don't be so hard on yourself. We all have those tough times. Horrible when they happen. Can be like everything is hard to do. Even the smallest of things. We just have to try and dig a little bit deeper. Hard as it is. Push ourselves. In this day and age there is help out there for everything. No matter what the problem is. To get that help we just need to force ourselves to take those first few steps. Far from easy when a person is down. But it can be done.
The Lovable Irish Rogue
ashamed
Can we ask of what exactly? There are times we can be very hard on ourselves. Blame ourselves for how the day is going and how we are feeling. Which is not our fault at all. We might say things to people. All just part of how we are on any given day.
The Lovable Irish Rogue
ok I just ate a bunch of junk food, Im on social security disability, my sex life past and I dont have a nice job and I cant have one now(long story)
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