Dusty and hopeless. Dry. Hollow. Sad. Blank.
Dusty and hopeless. Dry. Hollow. Sad. Blank.
Floating
Thank you, Kesky. I hope things get better for you too.Kesky
Sleepy. I can't sleep these nights.
I offhandedly mentioned hearing voices a few nights ago (hasn't happened since) to my coworker, and he looked at me like I sprouted an extra head. I insisted it was only that one time, and he was like, "Riiight, and next you'll reach for a knife..."
He also offered me his girlfriend's sleeping pills. I would have taken it, but was afraid it would be too potent and make me sleep through my alarm tomorrow morning. My best friend thinks I'm nuts for being willing to accept meds from a near-stranger.
Yeah, when you're desperate for sleep, you do that. Or I do anyways. I trust him.
The Awkward Conversationalist
HYPERRRRRRR
I just got back from practice with my dance team. I needed that.
LOL, one of my team members said to me, "Keddy, I had never seen a white dude pop it like that until I met you."
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
killer of conversations
For longer than I care to admit, I've felt like all the joy has been sucked out of my life. I don't remember how to have fun or be happy. They're just not things that come naturally to me. I think they did once upon a time, but that time has long since passed.
Socially inept Koala
Hope your mood starts improving illusion...
killer of conversations
It's just a way of life at this point, it seems. Thanks anyway though.Hope your mood starts improving illusion...
killer of conversations
Thanks, Kesky. I'm open to suggestions, but I'm not very good at following advice or believing I have any chance of benefiting from it. When I did enjoy things, I was probably still a small child.
I guess I did the same things I do now to try and enjoy myself though - music, TV, exercise, and so on but it's like....what is even the point? Guess I've got depression to thank for that. I'm usually too distracted by a larger issue to focus on a TV show or something. There's just always something else weighing on me, and I have a feeling that's going to be the norm until I figure out my life (if that ever happens).
Pretty full now. Was so hungry earlier xD So I wolfed down on a Vietnamese sandwich (banh mi)
The Awkward Conversationalist
Exhausted, but not in a bad way. Spent two hours at the gym- did some lifting, running, two sets of crunches, some stretches, and even worked on some choreography stuff. I'm beat LOL
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
Very disheartened
life---><---me
Happy
Left work today by saying goodbye to the owner/manager (not sure what she is), and telling her I had a fun week. I meant it. On a stress scale of 1-10, I'd give it 0/10... Sometimes it got to a 1/10. But that's only because I was placed in a really cushy position... Lots of room for error, but also pretty enjoyable.
Now showered, makeup off, classic soft rock on. Content. Could use some food though... My kitchen looks very sad lol.
The Awkward Conversationalist
Very loved
I honestly think that, right now, I'm with the guy I want to spend the rest of my life with. If, tonight, he asked me to marry him, I'd say "Absolutely. Let's do it tomorrow."
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
Feeling drained, a little anxious, but also a little relieved.
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