Kick butt awesome!
Kick butt awesome!
The weather sucks, the surf report sucks for the forseable future. I have commisions, but I don't have any money for supplies...My testosterone is super low
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Like shit...
Hmm...
I'M GONNA FIGHT 'EM ALL
A SEVEN NATION ARMY COULDN'T HOLD ME BACK.......
Board........
life---> <---me
Today? More like this past week if not longer. Depressed, frustrated, hopeless, angry—name a negative emotion and I've probably felt more than my fair share of it lately. I get distracted by a game or a conversation with somebody and feel better for a little while, but I eventually slip back into the blargh.
Exhausted...I talked to a vendor today for a long time about a lot of stuff. A lot of it had to do with business. I like talking about business, but talking about personal stuff is exhausting... Social Anxiety is exhausting...I wish being social wasn't such a big part of business. I actually like working. I wish the product would just sell itself.
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I woke up feeling complete despair and anger. Then I saw a documentary on the lives of some amazing Humpback Whales and calves, and it brightened my day.
Like this...
http://youtu.be/zSgiXGELjbc
"A still more glorious dawn awaits
Not a sunrise, but a galaxy rise
A morning filled with 400 billion suns
The rising of the milky way"
"The sky calls to us
If we do not destroy ourselves
We will one day venture to the stars" -Carl Sagan
I feel like shit. I woke up feeling like shit. I always feel like [BEEP] in the morning. Sometimes I just feel like [BEEP] physically, but today I felt like [BEEP] mentally and physically. I don't know why I was thinking what I was thinking, but I was thinking something I think about a lot. I was thinking I should be more successful than I am based on how hard I worked to go to school, and How hard I worked when I was in school.
I'm not a morning person and my business partner is. she was particularly hyper today and I was particularly sick. I should have just told her I was feeling sick, but I didn't I said something else and it pissed her off. She is actually one of the few people on earth who I care what she thinks. So I felt like crap for pissing her off so I smoked a cigar, then for some reason I smoked another cigar. Now I feel like total dog shit. Cigars are great at first for a few minutes then I feel like [BEEP] for the rest of the day.
Anyways, I was glad she was taking initiative, and it's good she's enthuisistic, but I just can't take enthusiasm when I'm waking up and I'm particularly tired because I've been working and surfing too much.
I'm just rambling...There's no point to this post
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