Usually really awful stuff. my mental state is at its worst right when Im trying to fall asleep...yay
Usually really awful stuff. my mental state is at its worst right when Im trying to fall asleep...yay
My anxiety is usually really high before bed. I have racing thoughts. Everything from what happened that day, to what might happen tomorrow and what could go wrong.
http://youtu.be/zSgiXGELjbc
"A still more glorious dawn awaits
Not a sunrise, but a galaxy rise
A morning filled with 400 billion suns
The rising of the milky way"
"The sky calls to us
If we do not destroy ourselves
We will one day venture to the stars" -Carl Sagan
Heh, even when I wake up in the night I check to make sure my alarm is set properly. I don't know why, because I don't even have anywhere to be. I guess I enjoy routines. Before I drift off, I try to imagine some pleasant scenario in hopes that I'll dream about it. I don't think it's ever worked, but I still do it every night.
eat some cereal, set alarm
"Damn this bed is comfy, yet empty."
Or panicking about the following day if I have something stressful coming up.
...every stupid thing I have ever done in life.
Since I'm usually reading or watching reruns of something on TV, my brain usually just flat lines into fuzzy.
If I actually tried to think before going to bed, I would never sleep.
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
My thoughts turn to a dangerous existentialism wondering a certain why and certain why not then how much a chore wanking is, also a reassuring myself that it's ok and i'll wake up in an instant(I have had a phobia of falling asleep)
"She rules until the end of time
She gives and she takes
She rules until the end of time
She goes her own way..."
What should I wear tomorrow? That is the only question that I can't get rid of my mind before going to bed.
Don't..................want....................to. .................fall.....................asle.... ...........
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
Usually what I plan to do the next day..or whatever I put off doing that day, I reassure myself that I'll get to it tomorrow.