I calmed down after talking to Roman. I mean, I did cut, but I didn't do any further damage to myself and I didn't attempt suicide. That's as positive as it's going to get for today. But I'm here, I'm alive, and I'm in good hands. I have the best boyfriend ever and I cannot wait to marry him
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
I got the job I got the job I got the job!!!!
They want me to start on Thursday. I'm going to be working at a performing arts center for kids in elementary through high school. I seriously thought this job was out of my reach but the lady I interviewed with really liked me!!! Woohooo!!!
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
Congratulations Keddy! That's awesome news
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Worked out & went for a 30 minute walk. Still a bit too hot for the walk back home to be comfortable, but it was still nice to get out of the house and get some sun.
Oh, and I figured out how to get music on my phone without using iTunes. I'm tarp as a shack. Not really. Not even close. But hey, I did it! Would have done it a long time ago but I just never needed to until now. Wish my MP3 players would cooperate, but this is actually really convenient.
Observation day at work went well
I officially start tomorrow. I'm anxious obviously but that goes without saying LOL. I'm sure I'll be fine.
I'm proud of myself that I got hired to be a dance instructor
Some of the kids are adorable and wonderful and really seem to like me but there are these two who are about fifteen who are MONSTERS. They already hate me. Fifteen is a bad age, at least from my standpoint in a teaching position.
But yeah, this thread is about positive things, so... Excited about starting my new job and I hope I can stick with this job this time
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
Hi-5
We're oozing with superior intelligence. I used iTunes for something like a week when I bought an iPod....five years ago? That's how long I've been holding onto the POS hoping one day it will magically work properly again. At this point, I think it's safe to say that's not going to happen. It's nice being able to scroll through my music freely on my phone rather than hit the "next" arrow two hundred times to get to the song I want to hear.
Three days? Pshh you novice, you!
Most of my "accomplishments" are anything I do that isn't lying in bed throwing myself a pity party. You know it's bad when you're patting yourself on the back for putting away your laundry. Facecloths in the linen closet? Today was a productive day.
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
i think if my dates add up correctly i haven't had a panic attack in two weeks this sunday, however i've got seeing matty and two more long shifts at work to go, if i do make it though it'll be the longest ive not panicked this year despite having two weeks filled with a fair amount of triggers also i caught myself getting anxious at work and not making any decisions for myself, caught myself halfway through stressing and went screw it do it, it needs doing, so im proud of myself for that since im not often able to do that, happy chloe :~)
The last week has been pretty bad for me. I relapsed into my pit of despair (aka my bed) and after about 3-4 days of laying around, spending my days mostly asleep the fiancé took action.
We spent yesterday in the garden, I helped him by raking up his grass cuttings. He knows sunshine cheers me up and being pushed to do something useful helped me out of my slump. We did a lot of garden work.
Today I'm proud because I did more gardening, when I was home alone (almost took the opportunity to go back to bed but didn't) and without prompting. I feel as though I achieved something, although the blister on my palm is decidedly unfun.
- Got almost 11 hours of sleep
- Worked out;
- Went to the Notary's Office and picked up the last document I need in order to get married;
- Went to a cafe with my parents;
- Bought gifts for my in-laws
My first official day at work was awesome
These kids love me. It makes me really happy. I had fun with the choreography myself too LOL. I think I'm really going to like being a dance teacher.
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
Finally taking care of my laptop's issues...this may take a while!