I showered even though I was feeling miserable so I am glad I made it through.
I showered even though I was feeling miserable so I am glad I made it through.
Waking up at a place I want to be at and feeling so happy
I was glad I did shower and got it over with and put on new Minion Pjs lol and then felt like I had a pocket well NO it was a huge split down the side not sewn together lol..
Having coffee and feeling great today!
Woke up to decorations from someone I love!
After having a horrible night and having to make a really tough decision, I woke up to the sweetest note I've ever read in my life
Think the depression is starting to lift today. I woke up this morning, looked around at my room, and thought "this is disgusting."
See, I go through phases whilst I'm depressed. I don't clean up after myself, the bins don't get emptied, dishes pile up on the desk and my clothes don't get washed. As Dad described it at the PIP assessment "there's a large pile of clothes on the floor and she eventually runs out." As for the dishes, the only reason they find their way back downstairs is because my parents take them out. Or my parents get disgusted by the state of the bins and take them out.
Then it starts to lift. I get disgusted by how I've been living. I take the bins out. I wash up all the dishes that have acclumated on my desk. I do a clothes wash. A large one. I pick up all the trash thats on the floor and generally just clean up after myself.
And so thats what I've been doing. I'm starting to feel better. Not much but...I dunno, I'm glad I did it. I'm beginning to feel better.
The increased dosage of Zoloft is making me feel nauseous all the time though. Hope this wears off. Or maybe it's just this bloody contraceptive injection thats doing that.
Also, called back the Department of Work and Pensions. Been anxious about doing that, kept missing them for the last two days. So glad I've done that because they've been chasing me up quite a bit. They wanted to know why the PIP assessor thought I was lot iller than I was claiming to be on the form I filled out. She was a bit baffled really, says its usually the other way round (people claim to be iller than the assessor says they are.)
I'M GONNA FIGHT 'EM ALL
A SEVEN NATION ARMY COULDN'T HOLD ME BACK.......
This morning I wrote to several people on Facebook and just said funny things and then on my wall posted Positive things! I also opened the front door and got the fedex box and then I sat in my swivel turned towards my bay window and looked up at the beautiful blue sky with pretty white clouds and Thanked God.
I got out of bed
I ate a healthy breakfast
I did some mindful colouring
I had a shower and out on day clothes
I finished my colouring
I did some crochet and watching a tv show
I cooked a chicken and ate lunch
This is good considering my life was going to [BEEP]
**Note to self - Keep breathing**
life---> <---me