I wasn't lying when I said I was never going to call. I guess it will be more obvious to you when I see you again. Everything I've told you was the truth.
I wasn't lying when I said I was never going to call. I guess it will be more obvious to you when I see you again. Everything I've told you was the truth.
Awesome so I'm supposed to be there when you need me but when I need you, you just ignore me? [BEEP] you. This always happens.
I'm just really awkward and shy when I talk to you. I'm not this dull.
I really wish I could spend today with you.
Are you seriously going to make me the third wheel this weekend? What I had in mind was not watching you two being all cutesy while pretending it doesn't make me both highly jealous and kind of sick. Then again I'd sooner be the third wheel than have you invite some dude I've never met. I don't prefer to make first impressions while makeup-free and bikini-clad. I hate my body. [BEEP] the beach, let's just go get drinks!
I'm really going to miss you. I'm sorry that I wasn't able to let you know.
Every time I see someone that looks like you it makes me feel sick. I really wish I would beat the [BEEP] out of you, like you deserve. You never ever even felt sorry for what you did to me. You stupid cow. You made me feel ashamed for what you did to me for years and years. Why should you get to be happy when you're a horrible person? No you don't get to think omg ive like changed now. How could you fucking do that to me? As a human being how could you? You pretended to be my friend so you could use me, manipulate me, threaten me for your own purpose.
You chose me because I was weak. You even fucking told me this. Do you have any sense of shame for what you did?
No, you don't because you're just a using lying manipulative [BEEP]!
So what happens when I'm in an episode in my effing fault? Jeezo, that makes me feel a lot better. Do you never think what it's like for me to come back to reality and realize I sent a message at three in the morning and I can barely remember doing it? Or that I posted an angry facebook status on an impulse and can't remember doing that either? Do you really think I just go "Hey, lets get on with life"? But no. I get to feel bad about it, so depressed that I hide away from the world, suicidal, guilty, embarressed...and that I have to admit to people that I have memory problems right now and get stared at with disbelief because out in the real world I seem somewhat fucking normal? Mate, you haven't got a clue! I don't leave the house much at the moment, I'm not doing much and the excitement of this week would be the appointment I have with my therapist tomorrow. That is when you know you really have nothing to do, and no life to speak of.
And you go on about how I sent horrible messages to you. And yet you tried to kill me. You were sane and fully in control. How could I ever expect you to understand? I even tried to explain the fact that I sometimes think I'm hearing other peoples thoughts. That this is getting worse, and not better. I know you don't trust me and to be quite frank, I don't trust you. I try and keep bipolar a secret, but the majority of people I know know anyways. I almost don't see the point of keeping it a secret. Do you have any idea how hard it is to act fucking normal some days? How hard it is to not walk along the street, leap onto someone cars and start jumping from car to car laughing as you go...might not seem like much, but trust me. The majority of people I've seen day in day out will notice that I'm, as they say "Up and down".
Ironically, someone once said "It's like your bipolar!".
No [BEEP] Sherlock.
I'M GONNA FIGHT 'EM ALL
A SEVEN NATION ARMY COULDN'T HOLD ME BACK.......
I wish I was with you now.
[BEEP] off and leave me alone!!!!
http://youtu.be/zSgiXGELjbc
"A still more glorious dawn awaits
Not a sunrise, but a galaxy rise
A morning filled with 400 billion suns
The rising of the milky way"
"The sky calls to us
If we do not destroy ourselves
We will one day venture to the stars" -Carl Sagan
Earth ............................
Can you slack off for awhile? I can only handle so much shit.
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
Get outta my head!