I am 16 years old and I have had Social Anxiety for as long as I can remember. I didn't always understand why I was so shy and unsociable until last summer. I had had dinner with my grandmother and my mother had talked with me about working on my eye contact. Later that night I had gone on the internet determined to find out why basic social situations did not commute to me and many Google searches later I found a website that talked about social anxiety.
As I read the symptoms list I started crying, everything it said described me and that scared me. I had been suffering my whole life and I finally knew why and that I was not alone, but I still had a disorder that I could not fix on my own. I started to sort of study myself, every time I was in any sort of social situation I payed attention to when I reacted, which was immediately when I was in the vicinity of anyone I was not related to . Now, almost a year later.
I have started seeing a therapist and a lot of what he is saying makes sense to me and I try to implement his teachings, but I am left with one big problem. As I said I have had social anxiety for as long as I remember and it has stunted my growth. No, not in a physical way, it has stunted my growth as a functioning human being. What i mean is, as others learn how to act and how to respond to the many things that happen when you interact with others I did not. Now I don't know where my social anxiety ends and normal social interaction begins. But I have only just begun my journey to becoming a somewhat social person and I am optimistic to what the future will hold.
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