It was a pretty big deal for me to get a job. It's not THAT new, I've been there almost four months. I got over the initial anxiety, however extreme it felt at times. I'm usually really good at bottling my emotions :/
BUT, a while back ago, a girl quit, and so I had to take her shifts for that week. I was patient about it coz it was a sudden thing, so I figured I would take the extra shifts while they looked for new people.
That was such a big mistake. Now my boss refuses to give me less than 5 shifts a week! This suckkksss for me big time because I could barely deal with 4 shifts a week. Not only that but it's 5 shifts in a ROW, no weekend days(so no extra money), AND they ALL start at 7am! For someone who has trouble sleeping at night due to anxiety, this is SUCH a huge deal.
I've been telling my boss for the last 3 weeks that 5 days a week is too much, and every week he says 'its just for this week' !! which is a lie!! And he keeps saying he doesn't have anyone else, which is ridiculous, because those new people that were hired haven't even been trained to do morning shifts, he's been giving them closing shifts. So there is no evidence that he's even trying to find people to work. He doesn't want to give the peopel who already work there morning shifts, coz he thinks they're too slow (how are they supposed to get better if they dont practice/learn!)
I'm so upset at this point. I'm finding it impossible to "fake smile" and pretend I'm ok, because I'm so pissed off at my boss, I can't even look at him without feeling sad. It's worse because all the morning shifts are with him. Not to mention the girls at my work are the partying type, and I find it so hard not to feel left out when they're talkign about their nights out. It didn't bother me before but since the 5 shifts and lack of sleep, I feel horrible. Everyone I talk to about it either says to confront my boss (i already have damnit, several times), or to suck it up, which just makes me more upset because they don't understand how hard it is for me.
I can't quit because my parents have been going through a tough time, money-wise. This is my first job, so I don't have enough experience for someone else to hire me. Even then I feel like I'd get a bad reference because I've been acting all sad lately at work. I feel so stuck
(sorry, it's a a lot to read i guess)