I am considering seeing my primary doctor or a psychologist to get diagnosed because I feel I'm wasting my young life with my obsession.
As long as I can remember I have been self-conscious. I was slighty overweight in my youth and harassed lightly for it. I think I was very awkward looking (at least in my opinion, may be skewed if I have BDD). I did lose weight, but I still felt hideous. Here are my current symptoms.
• I check the mirror an upwards of 50-100 times a day depending on how I perceive my appearance (good days result in less checking, bad days result in much more).
• I have almost gotten into accidents several times because I constantly check my reflection in the rear view mirror or side mirrors.
• I obsess about things on my face that no one else will even notice or focus on in any meaningful way.
• I have considered several cosmetic procedures and surgeries including laser surgery for undereyes, teeth whitening, microdermabrasion, fat-transfers, rhinoplasty (nose job)
• I completely avoid social situations and friendships because I do not feel comfortable being seen or receiving any attention. I get asked to do things with co-workers after work, but I turn it down and I wonder why they would even want to look at me.
• As you could tell, I 100% despise my photo being taken. I would ideally burn all family photos that have me in them and I avoid smiling all the time.