I suffer from PTSD. It has gotten worse over the years. I jump at the slightest loud noise, hate to be in busy places and don't like when people yell at me. I become very afraid. I even have flashbacks and nightmares of past abuse. I had a bad childhood. I was forced to be perfect by my parents and now that i have mental illness, they don't want to hear anything of it. They tell me i need to get over things now and be like them. I cannot do that. They make me feel like i am a disappointment to the family.