******************Disclaimer: There may be some triggering thoughts about self-harm in this post, please be advised*************************
I've been going through some great depression recently and my thoughts have taken me somewhere I haven't been for a very long time. The idea of taking my own life has not been an option for me, but my recent desperation and despair has made me gravely afraid of a grim future. I felt as though there is no point in battling through my depression and giving up might just be an ultimate solution (just irrational thoughts I know). This is where something happened that made me wonder if some sort of "divine intervention" (for lack of better words) is helping me through these crazy times.
Last night, I had a very vivid dream that I could not stop thinking about. I dreamed about the plane crash victims of the Germanwings flight (where the pilot with previous mental health issues flew the plane down the mountain.) I dreamed that I was on the plane with the passengers, although I could not remember too much detail. Then I was outside on a different plane overlooking the crash site. I remembered seeing the black charred remnants of the fire from the crash, and trees that were burnt with a large blackened area that spread across the forest. It was then that I cried for the victims of the crash. That was mostly all I could remember.
I'm not sure what to make of this dream, but I do believe that there is a lot of power in those kinds of dreams. What I took away from it was that those people did not have a choice to live or die. It also made me reflect on what if I was on the flight, terrified and begging for my life and for the plane to not crash. This was surely a contradiction of what I've been feeling, however. How could I be wanting to end my life one minute, and then pleading to not die the next?
Has anyone else had dreams that gave you epiphanies or revealed truths you've never realized before? Perhaps dreams that don't come from your own mind but outside sources?