Is on the agenda for me today, it scares me to drink, maybe wary is a better word but I do enjoy it and surely im entitled to a few every now and then. My problem is that I can easily buy beers everyday but I some how find the will power not to do it but on the other hand ive had one or four then its gone to 8-12 cans per night for the next fortnight or so even though I havent done that since I re started the flu.

Im that tangled up on the way my mind works and my medication that I do actually need that little treat every once in a while.

Ive already bought them but sort of feel I never learn from my mistakes and there is something telling me ive let myself down amd real doubt is creeping in on whether to drink them.


Yes, reassurance is exactly what I am after and I feel kind of stupid but its just four cans right?