Okay, so I am a very introverted and withdrawn person. I detest being this way, but I can t help how I am. I am trying so hard to become more of an extrovert but it s really difficult. I watched this video on confidence and it said that in order to become more confident, you have to put yourself in uncomfortable situations. I work at a restaurant which I know isn t ideal for someone like me. I get so nervous and I end up shaking sometimes. Anyway, I also study at college and I thought I d talk to strangers as it would help me become more confident. Anyway, I walked up to two guys and one girl who were using laptops. I switched my internet off and pretended that I didn t know how to connect and asked them if they could help me, they showed me how to do it and as opposed to walking away, I sat right near them. I then asked them what course they were doing and they told me. There was a little small talk and then it ended. They were talking back enthusiastically but I realised that I was the only one who was asking the questions, so I stopped as I got self conscious. I thought to myself, they ll be the ones who will continue it if they want as I have initiated enough conversation. They didn t continue talking to me as I m pretty sure they expected me to...maybe? Anyway, they continued talking amongst themselves and eventually left. Also during all of this, my hands were kind of shaking, I noticed.
Also, I don't know what they think of me? What if they think I'm a loser? aahhhh