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Exercise is making my thigh weak again. I noticed I'm walking with a slight limp as that leg doesn't want to hold all my weight right now. This is totally fine and certainly workable, so long as it doesn't get worse and turn back into whatever the hell was wrong with it before. I don't trust this not to happen, but I'm just starting to make some progress. Stopping isn't an option. I finally do something healthy and positive, it makes me feel better and more confident and my shitty undiagnosed problem is going to ruin it. I need to be able to do this.
This hiring hoop I have to complete by tomorrow is making me sweat bullets. Timed simulations with judging on typing accuracy as well. I don't think I can even take the job if by some absolutely ridiculous miracle I make it to the next step. Why do I feel so pressured??! I am so not ready to be stressed again!
I just stress-ate the entire bag of home baked cookies my friend made me.
Someone just said something that triggered anxiety for me.. as well as slight flashbacks. *sigh* This sucks. I had been feeling rather content and everything, then this happens.
I need some motivation .....were do I buy it?
life---> <---me
A bit anxious this morning. Okay, maybe not just a bit... since it's to the point where I feel I'm a bit delusional this morning. I don't even know if I'm delusional or not, but my instincts do tell me I am.... that things will truly be okay if I shift my state of mind to a more rational one. Going to do that before I meet up with my bf today.
It's raining :/
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
Chocolate....why did I not buy chocolate
life---> <---me
I haven't even left and already I'm messing things up. That didn't take long.
I should get out of my bathrobe and tackle something..
Going to the doc tomorrow about an ear problem I've been having
My mom just had the TV repair guy come over and fix our TV. I have no idea what was wrong with it cuz I just got home from work but I know I didn't do it. My younger brother told the TV guy (in front of my mom, for God's sakes) "Yeah, Keddy is always hooking up his Xbox to that TV and I think he messed up the connection again."
AGAIN?! I've never messed up the cable connection. And my Xbox doesn't interfere with the cable anyway, I use an HDMI plug-in...
My mom was like, "Kevin, it wasn't Keddy." (Thank goodness) but the little sh*t insisted that I must have done something.
I can't wait until I can afford my own place. This is getting ridiculous, my teenage brother should not be able to bully me. I need an apartment ASAP.
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot