I am so anxious about tomorrow, I'm sick and freaked out ....close to crying...maybe panic attack.
life---> <---me
Look, I am not giving you my fucking work, and I am at the point where I am getting sick of helping you, because it just turns into you asking "well couldn't you send me your work?"
NO [BEEP] NO I have spent hours and hours tryng to get my code to work and I am not handing it to you so that I can get done for plagarism. Do your own fucking work.
I'M GONNA FIGHT 'EM ALL
A SEVEN NATION ARMY COULDN'T HOLD ME BACK.......
I hate holidays. I feel so alone.
I am the Dragon of blood, a relentless prince of pain
I was feeling good and enjoying myself today, and then I got two insulting messages that ruined my mood and day.
Fuck, why do horrible people exist?!
Holidays do that because of all the hype about family and friends. So yeah, they can suck. I wonder though if the only people actually looking like the TV shows are the ones from undivorced families who live in delusion. For the rest of the world, I think the majority of us feel the same way.
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
I am just feeling very angry.
I'm angry at my son for fucking up his life
I'm angry at my ex for teaching my sons how to [BEEP] up their life - and I'm angry at him because he acts like a fucking holy roly now.
I'm angry with myself for not parenting better
I'm angry with this stupid [BEEP] kid who keeps disrupting our teen programs
I'm angry with my other son for shoving rainbows and sunshine good times at me and never once asking about his brother - no wonder he couldn't find a best man for his weeding - it's all about him him him
I'm angry at my daughter for keeping in her feelings and getting angry at me if I feel anything
I'm angry at a clueless co-worker who makes her problems my problems
I'm angry because there was a beautiful sunset today and my stupid son who ruined his life won't get to see things like that for a very long time
I'm angry at my mother for putting her crazy [BEEP] sister ahead of every damned thing in her life - including her own health
I'm angry at my aunt for being a bigoted ignorant selfish bitch
I'm angry with my youngest brother for refusing to talk to me for 35 years because I left him to get married
I'm angry at my gossiping sister-in-law who will tell my mother about my son the minute she gets her drama llama hands on the information
I'm angry at people who set out to hurt me
I'm angry at lying bitches in my life
I'm angry at people who play guessing games - either tell me or don't but don't egg me on then go "Oh never mind."
I'm angry at jealous people who go out of their way to sabotage me
I'm angry at God for allowing my son to ruin his life and then "fixing him" in this way
I'm angry that I'm in debt with no way to pay it off
And I'm angry because I know it would be better to let all of that go and just feel blessed and patient.
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
Negative thoughts about myself creeping in...
Im so disgusted with myself now