A couple things I don't wanna mention right now, but otherwise, am not doing too bad....
Well, at that time, I was minding my own business in my flat. I have new neighbours who are frequently obnoxiously noisy. I have misophonia. These two factors don't go well together. So, it usually ends up with me being forced to wear my noise-cancelling headphones feeling depressed that this is where my life has come to.
They're just young and seem to have verbal volume regulation problems. I'm hyper-reactive to their noises they make. It's hard. I feel like I can't push them as hard as I want to to be quiet without being unreasonable.... Basically, it's a tricky balancing act between not wanting to be the angry, old buzzard killjoy or having them trash the quiet sanctity that I wish for in my sanctuary. I have to carefully manage my noise situation constantly because of my misophonia and the fact that I live in a flat among several blocks that are clustered together.
The fact that I have this situation to go with agoraphobia.... Well, I'm sure you can imagine how difficult that can make my situation. But, I don't really have a choice at this time, so I manage it as best as I can. *sigh*
Thanks for the hug.
I completely understand this. I struggle really badly with generalized anxiety, and likely borderline agoraphobia (there were YEARS I didn't leave the house) and when I did finally leave it was for short periods of times. I can now without panicking, with medicine. I get really hyper vigilant outside and hyper-reactive to loud sounds like a scaredy cat. I get symptoms of misophonia with my chronic migraines and even small sounds can cause me extreme pain, physical and emotional distress (even strong smells). I find the best thing for this is my calming tea, scents that are on my ok list, meditation, medication, and trying to sensory block everything else out.
Ugh....feeling really awful physically at the moment. Whatever is causing this these days, it's brutal.
Seems like we have a fair bit in common, because this description sounds quite a bit like my general situation. My migraines are pretty rare though, thankfully and they tend be the silent type, so I don't really get the extreme pain, fortunately. I haven't had a full-blown one since I was a teen.
I love my tea. I tend to like berry-based herbal teas the most.... or a nice lemon and ginger before bed, though this summer I was having cold brew versions because it just gets too hot for tea in Australia. If you've never tried them, look up how to do it online, it's so refreshing, and a nice way to get the positive benefits of tea in hot weather.
Scents.... I really love vanilla or berry scents. Vanilla, in particular, makes my brain feel like it's being cleansed. It helps give me the clarity that my overactive mind can sometimes lack. Might have to go light a candle now.
High anxiety at the thought of returning to work tomorrow and starting the work week all over again.
It is the light she longs to find,
When she delights in learning more.
Her world is learning; it defines
The destiny she?s reaching for
- Marie Curie