I could really use some huggers right now.
Literally had someone post a fb status after we hung out saying how boring their night was :/ then delete it today so i wouldn't see but i seen the post -.- i was on fb right after we hung out. Now they are hardly saying anything to me.
Totally understand why that bothers you. And you're just feeling your thinking here. "Boring night" could mean anything. The person could have stuff going on their life which meant they couldn't enjoy the night out as much as they might have liked. Your thinking has been trying to link "boring night" with you and your thinking has been trying to tell you that you caused this person's night to be boring.
Therefore, the power to hurt you is not in what was said. The power to hurt you is in your thinking. You're feeling your thinking. You know you're a valuable, good person no matter what anyone says about you. Your validation comes not from what others say about you but from the expression of you really are.
I am avoiding everyone, because I feel they hate me. I don't think they would even miss me, if I was permanently gone.
Feel so slow and dead. I have no energy to do anything anymore except watch shows on Netflix or JustDubs/AnimeFlavor. No matter how much I sleep, I feel tired when I wake up. I really want to be able to get stuff done, but I feel like I just can't.
Thanks! I managed to write ~2 pages (of 7-11) and clean my room. Small victories!
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What's bothering me now is that my friend is becoming increasingly anxious and paranoid talking about stuff like chem trails and the whole Dec. 21st end of the world thing... And I have no idea how to help him. Or even what to say that doesn't sound dismissive.
I'm in love with the world through the eyes of a girl who's still around the morning after...
I have jury duty tomorrow :/ im kinda nervous...anxious. Actually really anxious.
I really ought to learn how to shut up. I think I'm alienating too many people around me.