Don't feel like working out.. I actually don't feel like doing anything at all, but I know that doing nothing will make me feel even more miserable. So I'll just put on my sports clothes and drag my [BEEP] to the gym.
Don't feel like working out.. I actually don't feel like doing anything at all, but I know that doing nothing will make me feel even more miserable. So I'll just put on my sports clothes and drag my [BEEP] to the gym.
killer of conversations
I don't know what to do with myself. Which usually means I need to just call it a night before my mood worsens. Consciousness gets to a point where it's too much to handle sometimes. The hurt, depression, and anxiety won't let up. And you'd think it would be enough for me to know that it's all just self-defeating bullshit, like I could somehow snap out of it knowing how useless it is. But I guess if that's how psychological issues worked, this site would be a ghost town.
I'm trying not to fall into the trap of comparing my recovery to others.
I convinced a friend to see a counsellor and I'm glad to hear it's going well, but I can't help asking myself, "Why aren't mine going so well?" I also did mention it in conversation as it's a common trap and probably upset her about her own progress. Balls.
Socially inept Koala
You know what's really fun? Working concession stands at a a movie theatre during an INSANE rush and being told that the co2 in the soda/slushie machines are leaking and having to tell each...fucking...customer that we can't serve them ANY soda or slushies. Oh what a beautiful day that was
this moving thing is so annoying...
3 1/2 weeks before I go back to work and nervous about what others will think when I get there...
Have you ever seen anything this sad?
The Awkward Conversationalist
Oh my goodnessGunnyHighway
Have you ever seen anything this sad?
I just wanna give the little guy a big hug and tell him it's OK. Poor kitty. No, I haven't ever seen anything that sad.
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
The Awkward Conversationalist
My mother is so mean. She knows she's not supposed to contact me. She disowned me for God's sakes.
But she called today and told me she's not going to pay for me to go to college anymore, so now Roman's parents are offering to pay for it. I know they can afford it, but it breaks my heart that they have to do it. I wish I had enough money to pay for it myself.
The consequences of me dropping out of school would be too severe for me to not agree for them to pay, and they're fine with it and they've been nothing but wonderful to me, but I feel so bad
My mom sucks. Plain and simple. Wins the awards for Terrible Person of the Year and World's Most Selfish, hands down.
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
A second attorney for the other woman involved in my case was disqualified. She's now scrambling, for the second time, to find another attorney who will pick up her case in federal court. She says she wants to quit, that she can't take it anymore. I don't want her to quit, because -
Because a lot of reasons.
Today is going to be an awkward filled day....
life---><---me
Went to my first SA meetup, was the only one who really didn't talk. Everyone was so well spoken while I stay shut, mind goes blank. Sucks.
The Awkward Conversationalist
I hate people. People always find ways to make me want to kill myself. I'm sick and tired of having my feelings hurt.
I know I'm incredibly sensitive, but I just hate rudeness. I can't deal with it. Seriously, if someone doesn't have something nice to say, don't fuckin' say it. The reason the world is such a mess is because everyone insists on treating each other like garbage.
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
I really need this right now but if I get started, I won't ever shut up.
Socially inept Koala
I really hate myself today
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