Finals coming up...AND IM NOT READY :#
Abdominal pain Might have to be readmitted into hospital.
I'm so paralyzed by my anxiety. In my lab last week, I could barely even function and do work, and my partner was berating me the entire time because I was practically frozen still, and I continued to mess up calculations and make errors, or forget 'simple' things. I feel like such a worthless piece of [BEEP] sometimes.
Errrghh
Day 5 of 7 12h night shifts
life---> <---me
Lots. I hate being up at this time, everything is intensified. Not looking forward to work, nervous about meetings, conversations, asking my boss something. Think I'm being used by someone, a so called friend made a cruel comment, insensitivity of others, etc. Not sure how to break something to a friend. Feel trapped in life. And to top it off, I feel more boring than usual. I thought I was getting close to a few others, but it seems I was too annoying and drove one away. The other one found others who are more fun. Can't believe I'm complaining this much. I just need to vent, and I can't open up to those I normally would.
Server migraine
I have my college orientation this Saturday. Pls no. I also have another anxiety inducing plan next week. My eye strarted twitching right now from all this pre-stress.
Keep it cool. Cool people never show emotion. Keep it cool.