Pain
Pain
I really wish I wasn't so afraid to post things on here so people can get a better understanding of me. I am afraid.
Every time I write something, I end up erasing it. ( The personal stuff)! My heart is racing just typing this.
I stick to the fun and games and answer things more than I am able to post myself out of pure fear.
Same here and I have a habit of deleting my post.Some of the mods here kept getting me to come back and convinced me this site isn't like the other site (social anxiety support) and they were right, but I have seen some of the trolls here from the other site that annoyed me on here a while back. I really don't like sharing too much period.
I have tried other sites. I had found one where it seemed to be okay, but what happened was, I started to post, which was hard. I got some good answers, but the friend part didn't go so well. When I do something, I dedicate myself to it, and I took the time for others, and nobody would talk to me unless I initiated it. Well, that just made me feel not good. I understand why we are here, and that we are all looking for help or support or just the feeling of not being alone, but when you try to have as many friends as possible, I just don't think that you can keep up with people and give them the time they deserve. That seemed to be the case with some of the others I have dealt with. They were on the site just like me, but made me feel as though it was their job to answer me.
As far as harassing people, geez, that is just disgusting to me. If you had a good thing going and felt you had to leave cause of harassment, that is just terrible. The people here seem very kind, and do not seem like they will put up with the BS. I hope you are able to get comfortable, and be more of yourself.
It hurts....the sunburn hurts so much - IT WASN'T EVEN THAT SUNNY
life---> <---me
It may be time to admit the sad, sad truth.
I am going to have to call for help tomorrow.
Things are getting a bit to scary. Not sleeping. Feeling excitable. Full of energy. Irritability. Warning signs once again. I ignore them every time.
Two weeks ago, depressed as fuck, no motivation. Now this?
Maybe I do need to see a psychiatrist. I don't know. Maybe it's time I picked up the phone and gave them a call.
Don't even know if I'm still on the list of patients or if I need a GP referral again. Hope not cos my GP is never in and convincing some random is never fun. The last random Gp seemed to forget I was an adult, and what confidentiality laws are. I do tell my parents most things regarding my bipolar, but my mother has an aversion to sleeping pills entirely, which seems to extend to me taking them when manic.
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Kinda nervous for school tomorrow
Feeling ill. Wasn't able to.go into work.today cos of it. Still feel ill. Sore all over and shivery somehow despite the fact that.its 30cish out there. I'm lying under two blankets and a duvet.
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I'M GONNA FIGHT 'EM ALL
A SEVEN NATION ARMY COULDN'T HOLD ME BACK.......