Trying to eat healthy but I get such intense cravings when I'm mid cycle. Want donuts so bad right now.
[BEEP] today
My grandma made a comment on my weight even though she is bigger than me I still find it annoying. I hope to lose more weight in the future and hope nothing gets in the way of that like it did in the past -____-
[BEEP] everything. I fucking hate my life.
*Internally screaming*
Everything that happened tonight is my fault and I can't live with knowing that. That's all I feel comfortable saying right now.
Thank you Jerry
He didn't take anything out on me. I'm not hurt. I'm more concerned that he's going to hurt himself than I am that he's going to harm anyone else.
The reason I'm blaming myself is because I'm the one who pushed him to apply for this job. I feel responsible for his stress.
I had a talk with him we played some video games and watched some funny videos together. He's pretty calm right now. If he has another outburst I will seriously consider taking him to the ER. He says he doesn't think he needs to go and he's going to keep himself safe. I trust him. For now I think the best thing for both of us to do is get some rest.
I am looking after myself too, thank you