I'm sleep deprived and I feel like I'm going insane
I find it really unsettling when my dogs all start howling at once.
My new glasses are giving me eyestrain. I think they fcked something up. Either the astigmatism axis or the pupillary distance.
Also I don't get why my anxiety fluctuates so much for no reason. I'll wake up in the morning and immediately know its going to be an anxiety day.
Never picked up good study habits so studying can be a bit annoying at times..
I slept for 14 hours and woke up at 3 PM. I feel much better but that was a waste of a day.
Also, my dreams are really fucked, and they're extremely vivid.
Today was a struggle. I'm hoping for a better night.
I was cleaning my house and I was looking through stuff on my desk, and I found a letter from my partner... I don't even know how to explain the feelings I'm having right now. I'm just going to spend the rest of the night crying.
What the fuck.
My self esteem the past couple of days have sunk so badly and I feel so worthless. I could not do the list of things I needed to do this week. I wasn't good enough..... and I can barely get myself to get out of bed from the anxiousness of possibly failing. I know I need to change, and that things will be alright in the end. But right now, in this moment, I'm in a pit that keeps swirling, and feels impossible to get out. The darkness just grows.