Is strange but one of the things that has (again) made me realize, with this storm, is how few friends I have irl and how very few people I have to call lol.
I'm laughing at myself, but it is really pretty sad. Anxiety, and the defense mechanisms I have....they have shut a lot of people out. A lot of potential friends. If you don't understand that then I would just have to guess that you and I experience anxiety on a whole different level, and in an entirely different way. I realize everyone experiences this anxiety stuff differently. I get that. But a whole, whole lot of us get it from trauma, from child abuse, from going through and somehow surviving pure hell, often at times when we're not emotionally capable of dealing with it, due to our age or whatever.
Anyway I'm reading fb posts of tons, and tons of friends and family who are leaning on each other, and I don't have very many real friends, and I'm not feeling sorry for myself...please understand it's my own damn fault. What I'm saying is, my anxiety keeps people at a distance. And situations like this make that fact painfully obvious. And I'm sure I'm not the only one. It sucks. It really, really sucks lol.