i am recovering from surgery and my mom makes me feel more miserable than i already am...
i am recovering from surgery and my mom makes me feel more miserable than i already am...
I hope this new medication helps cause I am getting worse and worse each year. I feel like everyone wants to target me and destroy me.
What kind of doggo? I used to have a petite pug, who was basically a smaller-than-usual pug. Her name was Zoey, after a really good local pizza place I like. I taught her a few commands, but then it got to be too much to have a highly energetic puggerina in an apartment, and my aunt adopted her. My aunt loves her, and Zoey loves my aunt, so it was good timing. I still see her when my aunt visits.
^ What's bothering me right now (I was just about to post this) is I have absolutely no desire for anything like a relationship. No desire to date right now, at all. I still notice beautiful women oc. But I have absolutely zero ambition, motivation to get involved right now lol.
I'd be open to a fling or a one night stand but the problem with those is they never stay that way, someone's feelings always get involved. Always, in my experience.
I don't need any more fucking complications in my life. I don't want the headaches of dating. Or even the headaches that come with pursuing a female. No thanks. [BEEP] that lol.
You're going to lose people in your life, and realize that no matter how much time you spent with them or how often you told them you loved them, it will never seem like it was enough.
Hug the ones you love.
The poodles I've been lucky enough to get to know are great. Sometimes people have this idea that poodles are these fancy dogs with fancy haircuts they want to show off. I had an English professor in college who had a small poodle and that doggo was awesome. My English professor had a broken foot at that time and her poodle would lick that foot when she could because she knew my professor was in pain from it and wanted to help my professor. That professor and I had a conversation where she explained to me that the English word poodle comes from a German word "puddle" that is pronounced the same, and poodles were originally bred as extremely intelligent dogs who Medieval Germans actually liked for their hunting abilities. Long story short, poodles are doggos and doggos are great.
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Sad, I know you're having a rough time. I don't know much about Calvin. I know he said being alive is a beautiful gift when it is appreciated, but it is basically hell to be alive and have a "bad conscience." I don't consider you any worse of a person than myself. In fact, you are probably a better person than I am if your peccadilloes are causing you this much suffering. It might be a good idea for us all to focus less on what Calvin said, and instead take the New Testament more for what it is there for, to explain that the Old Testament covenant with God the ancient Hebrews adhered to was obsolete in some ways, and God is nothing else if God is not about forgiving our sins. I might be wrong.
I don't know much about Calvinism and Calvin's beliefs. Calvin is no better or worse than you or me, I think. He did the best he could with his life. I don't believe that the number of souls destined for a positive afterlife is more subject to fate than free will, but from what I understand some people interpret Calvin's theological work to mean just that. Essentially, we all have access to his works, but more importantly we all have the same access to the works of people who were able to record their thoughts and experiences who interacted with who they believed to be God incarnate. What bothers me right now is the tendency some people seem to have to cede their abilities to use their reason to another, whether it is John Calvin or Martin Luther or even Pope Francis. I'm sorry you're experiencing your suffering, Sad. I might misunderstand where you are coming from, since like I said I do not know much about Calvinism, but I feel maybe you are holding yourself to a higher standard than necessary.
so scared..
For once, absolutely nothing. I had an awesome time today with my parents and aunt and uncle. We went to the Astros vs RedSox game, and the bullpen blew our lead (again) but it was a good game, and everyone had a good time. Lots of laughter and good food and ice cream lol. We're all also going on vacation together in a few months and we talked about that, everyone's excited about it
You're going to lose people in your life, and realize that no matter how much time you spent with them or how often you told them you loved them, it will never seem like it was enough.
Hug the ones you love.
Ugh I make such a fool out of myself with everything! I can tell people hate me here.
Fwiw, I try to remember that I don't need anyone to validate who I am. I don't need anyone's approval (online or irl) to be OK. It has got to be exhausting to go through life like that, constantly worried about if you're liked at every moment, or constantly worried about if everyone approves lol.
I was like that my first couple of years in high school. I most def do not think that way anymore. Thank the gods. This is me. Take it or leave it. If anyone has a problem with me, that's too bad for them, I'm sorry they have that conflict in their life lol. I don't.
You're going to lose people in your life, and realize that no matter how much time you spent with them or how often you told them you loved them, it will never seem like it was enough.
Hug the ones you love.
I don't believe anyone can commit a sin that makes them beyond God's ability to forgive them. I also believe even the Devil can quote The Bible to suit his purposes. It bothers me when people feel they deserve one thing or another because a book tells them so. I hope you're no different than I am Sad, because I wouldn't want anyone to feel ashamed that a book told them what they are doing is somehow bad.
The Bible can certainly help us in our efforts to make sense of our lives. The Torah, Qur'an, Bhagavad Gita, are no better than The Bible. It irks me when people use those books to justify things they do.
I know very little about the Hadith. If it is another text that some consider holy while being used to justify their reprehensible actions, I think those people have more of an issue with themselves than with the Qur'an or any other holy text.
Gotta go back to my flat soon. Probably either later this week or next. I mean, most of my stuff is still there and all, and my lease is ending soon, so I don't really have much choice. And I kinda need my National Insurance, which I stupidly left there. But I haven't been back since well, everything happened. So kinda nervous about returning really.
I'M GONNA FIGHT 'EM ALL
A SEVEN NATION ARMY COULDN'T HOLD ME BACK.......