I'm a cow :/
Bored....very bored
I sent an email to a guy selling rare fish asking how much the shipping would be on some fish I was interested in and he said he needed my full address, just saying Los Angeles wasn't enough. I send him my full address and today I get an email saying the fish have been sent and here's the bill. And the price is absurdly high. I wonder if the guy did it on purpose.
my f**king tooth
So its either a) you don't care, b) you don't care enough to notice, or c) you care but not enough to talk to me about it.
All roads lead back to A, and I hate that you take up space and time in my mind despite this. I can't believe I fell for you. I should have known better.
I'm so disappointed in myself. I hate being lazy but sometimes I just don't have it in me to try.
My daughter is having a baby today, this is going to be her 3ed child. This means that I'm going to be babysitting her other 2 children for the next 2 or 3 days. I'm so nervous that I feel like throwing up. Normally, I can watch small kids okay, but the oldest one is really a handful because he blind and has several other issues and medications he needs to take, and the other grandchild is two years old, and shes a handful too. Its sounds like I'm gonna have my hands full. I'm so not good with little kids, especially those kids.
It makes me so mad that she keeps having babies with that dirty rat man. Every time shes given birth he's not there for her. He's off having an affair, living with some other woman, doing drugs, and drinking. Yet, I bet she takes him right back, like she does every time. Then he'll smack her around and abuse her some more. Arghhh!! The stupidity of it all!!! She never listens to me. I don't want to babysit! I have a busy week planned at work. Its biggest day of the year on Thursday, and preparations start today.
I so want to be happy for her. Most grandparents are thrilled to receive more grand babies, but I am not. Its so selfish of her to keep having babies when the blind child needs so much attention. Part of feels that she got herself into this mess. Soon she will have nowhere to live because she's getting evicted and I certainly don't want them to move here. She's never had a job, just stays home making babies. What a big mess!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Edit.... I'm gonna be there for her though, I have to be. Everything's gonna be alright.