I don't know, maybe this seems like a stupid question. I want to believe in God or something, anything spiritual...but I just can't. I don't know why I can't, but it's just the way it is. I feel like other people have some sort of special feeling or inspiration or something when they hear the word of God (or whatever religion they are a part of) and I feel....nothing. But I want that so bad, because I feel like it would help me to feel less alone. I've always wanted that sense of belonging that I sense in many faith communities, but when I tried becoming a part of a church, I felt like a big fat fraud.
I guess my question is, have you always believed in a God? Was there some spiritual awakening that occurred? Or am I just weird for always feeling so empty?