Hello, new to this forum.
I've had a little depression most of my life, but nothing I felt I couldn't get through myself. In July I got really depressed, I started having a little anxiety/panic. Started out just having a little uneasy feeling, with arm/neck/shoulder/chest pains, and by the end of August it became full blown panic/anxiety attacks. I did go to the doctor, all natural doctor, and it helped a lot. Turned out my blood was really low or really high in a bunch of stuff and I started doing a low carb diet.
I don't currently have insurance, which is why I go to the doctor I go to, a family friend and works on a sliding scale. I always think, would it be any better if I went to a regular doctor and got the "usual" drugs? I don't know.
By Mid-end of September I lost just over 15 lbs and with the supplements I had been taking It all started to be really good. Very little to no anxiety.
It's now Mid October and about a week ago I started getting those uneasy feelings again. I keep taking my supplements, and have lost about 23 lbs now. Couple days ago was the worst day I've had in a while. I just don't want to go back down that hole again.
It's just so frustrating. I had some neck/shoulder/chest last week but tried my best to ignore them, and it seemed to go pretty good. But my new stupid obsession is I've been waking up in a sweat for the last couple of nights/mornings.
The first night I thought I had a fever because I was so hot, so I took my temp and it was only like 97 something. What? How can I be so hot and my temp be low. I even bought a new thermometer because I thought mine was broken. The next morning, wake up in a sweat, take my temp, 96. something....I've been feeling like I'm either way to hot or way to cold. ugh, great something else for my brain to dwell on...
I talk to my husband about it all, but I always feel like such a nag, and a complainer. Or just plain or crazy. Some nights when I can't sleep because of anxiety I keep him up too and feel bad I do and just keep talking about "IT". But he's been a huge rock and help to me since all this crap. He's amazing. More than I could have ever asked for or wanted.
I feel like I've tried so hard in helping myself feel physically better, dieting/dropping weight, posture alignment therapy, and supplements. But seems like that isn't enough. I've forgotten about helping myself mentally too. So I have my first appointment with a therapist tomorrow. I am surprisingly looking forward to it. Hopefully it will help me somehow.
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