I feel like I'm the type of person that is the opposite of people who don't know what to do with their life.
I have a lot of ideas but I don't know which path to try.
I keep trying one, but it leads to failure or disappointment or me changing my mind.
For example this past semester, i worked hard, I got 4 As, and one D+ in calculus one, which it need for the major I want to change to after community college (engineering).
Everything I want to do involves math, science, or both too.
And I put my best effort in calculus, I had an online tutor, did all my homework, asked questions in class, and went to the math learning center for extra help.
I would even go over problems I got wrong on quizzes to do better.
I would get all the homework right too.
I still did bad calc...
I just don't know what to do...
And especially at this point, I'm not motivated to make my whole life 100% school, I wasn't motivated enough to do calc hours upon hours a day (even though I did do that sometimes when I needed it). I don't want to do study in books everyday, especially since I have a job where I work 30hours a week...nor am I ready, I'll literally either have to quit my time or have no time for anything else which I am not motivated or ready to do because I will be very stressed and said then, and I need a job...
I'm not interested in any of the easier subjects I get an A in...
I don't know what to do and I'm getting very demotivated and I feel hopeless for the future working some crappy job that's I don't need a college degree for that isn't even worth bragging about where I'm in debt from putting money towards college...