Discouraged about my future

[Chieve]

I feel like I'm the type of person that is the opposite of people who don't know what to do with their life.

I have a lot of ideas but I don't know which path to try.

I keep trying one, but it leads to failure or disappointment or me changing my mind.

For example this past semester, i worked hard, I got 4 As, and one D+ in calculus one, which it need for the major I want to change to after community college (engineering).

Everything I want to do involves math, science, or both too.

And I put my best effort in calculus, I had an online tutor, did all my homework, asked questions in class, and went to the math learning center for extra help.

I would even go over problems I got wrong on quizzes to do better.

I would get all the homework right too.

I still did bad calc...

I just don't know what to do...

And especially at this point, I'm not motivated to make my whole life 100% school, I wasn't motivated enough to do calc hours upon hours a day (even though I did do that sometimes when I needed it). I don't want to do study in books everyday, especially since I have a job where I work 30hours a week...nor am I ready, I'll literally either have to quit my time or have no time for anything else which I am not motivated or ready to do because I will be very stressed and said then, and I need a job...

I'm not interested in any of the easier subjects I get an A in...

I don't know what to do and I'm getting very demotivated and I feel hopeless for the future working some crappy job that's I don't need a college degree for that isn't even worth bragging about where I'm in debt from putting money towards college...

[Chantellabella]

Life can look pretty shitty sometimes......especially when you work hard at something and it still doesn't succeed. But if uou can look past this one grade and tell yourself you only need to focus on doing it over for a better grade rather than looking at it as your entire career shot, it may not seem so insurmountable. Sometimes setbacks can actually teach us more than successes can.