Birthdays

[SmileyFace]

What are you guys' thoughts on birthdays? (yours and others') Do you guys usually do anything for your birthday? Do you celebrate it with others? Do you celebrate yourself and just simply treat yourself to something nice? Or is it just another day of the year and you don't do anything at all?

With my 23rd birthday fast approaching, I've been stuck with how I feel about it. I was excited about it the other day, but my mood just quickly dropped when I realized hardly anyone has time to hang out with me for my birthday. People have never really been interested anyway unless it's their birthday. This seems to apply to any other hangout really... I hardly ever get people to stick to plans I made, but when it's their plans, everything is good to go. It's frustrating and depressing...

I don't even know what I want to do for my birthday. There's nothing wrong with just not doing anything and letting it be just another day, but at the same time, I want to do something. I just don't know what (I don't drink or party).

I rarely ever spend my birthday with anyone. I think for the last 2-3 years, I spent it with my BF.. and I just feel like an absolute loser for it. He's the only person outside of my family whom I hang out with. I want to be able to hang out with other people too.. other friends and acquaintances, but nobody else ever seems to be interested or have the time. So I end up feeling like my BF is the only person I have to talk to or hang out with as much as I do with him. I feel guilty even wanting us to hang out around my birthday. I just feel like it's too much to ask for. Even if I was hanging out with other people, I'd also feel wanting to celebrate my birthday with them is too much to ask for.

In the end, it seems more "comfortable" doing it all alone. But I'm so tired of doing things and going places by myself. I do that already like...98% of the time now because people apparently just don't have the fuckin time or anything to hang out with me. And yet, they wonder why I always go places alone and "don't invite them."

Maybe I'm making a big deal about my birthday. It's just a birthday. The day after that, things will just be back to how it was before my birthday. This is why I'm stuck with how I feel about birthdays. Even if I was out having fun, in the back of my mind.. I know it's just any other day.

I don't know anymore I can't shake this guilt off either. Makes me kind of wish I didn't tell my BF I wanted to hang out for my birthday. He agreed to it, but he hasn't said much about it since then because we really don't know what to do or where to go (I think this is another bulk of this problem I have with birthdays), so eh. Now I don't really want to bring up this stuff with him anymore until the day we have planned is right around the corner... because I'll feel like I'm being pushy and making it all "me me me me me me."

Maybe I am making it all "me me me me," but I'm just so tired of celebrating other people's birthdays and doing things for them.. but nobody ever does things for me. Lately I've been feeling like I'm not really all that appreciated much...

[GunnyHighway]

Since the age of 17, I haven't done anything for my birthday besides have a few drinks. Even before that was just small family get togethers. Just like you said, all that's sitting in the back of my mind is "it's just another day".

[Inscrutable Banana]

I've only had a couple of actual birthday parties when I was a kid (before I hit my double digits), and in my entire life I've only received maybe a handful of presents. Sometimes there will be a cake, but not that often. Ultimately, I just see it as another day and I don't place much importance on it.