What Am I Doing Wrong? :(

[Keddy]

I have realized today that I actually don't have any friends here at college
The more I try to hang out with people and attempt to be social, the less they want to be around me. I don't know why
I guess I'm just not likeable and not easy to relate to.
I wish I wasn't so awkward. I know I probably come across a lot more normal on here than I do out in the Real World...
I had a play rehearsal tonight and I was ever so conveniently the only cast member they didn't need, although I'm the male lead.
I think the girl acting opposite me really hates me and that might be why. Childish of her, but it really might be why.
So I asked one of my "friends" today if I annoy him and his girlfriend, and he was like "Yeah kinda." I don't know what's so irritating about me. All I try to do is be nice
I wish I had some social skills!
I miss my best friend from high school. He would still be my friend if he didn't go to school in Florida
People only hang out with me because they pity me...
I think I have autism. I think maybe that's why I'm so awkward around other people I wish I knew if I had it or not but I've never been diagnosed with it. I probably have that or Aspergers.
I just feel really bad right now I get really jealous of all the people who have no trouble communicating with others or having tons of close friends.
And I wish people realized the effects of what happens when they don't treat others with kindness I've experienced enough of it here at school and at work as well.
*Sigh*

[Skippy]

Aww...

I dunno, buddy, ppl are just fucked up. I think being nice is part of the problem; I'll say it sure fucked me up. But I will continue to be cuz I'm doing the right thing.

Id I were in yer area I'd hang out wit' ya.

Just hang in there, school is a rough time for some to fit in, and time will always change things....if you like it or not which is kinda the scary thing...

[Keddy]

Thank you, Skippy

You're an awfully nice guy

[Otherside]

It could be self fulfilling prophecy. Somehow, I think a lot of us with social anxiety have this problem. We think we're being rude to people, we think they hate us, so we inadvertently push people away. Others pick up on that, and they get the wrong idea that we don't want to talk to them. It's a never ending circle.

But perhaps you are doing something that's upsetting others. Maybe you should ask them about what it is specifically. All we can really do in life is try and learn. Some people are simply better at socializing than others. Usually the ones who are extremely good at it are complete pricks with oh so charming personalities.

As for Aspergers, maybe you have it, maybe you don't. But if you haven't been diagnosed or no teachers in school picked up on it, and you do have it, I'd say you have it pretty mildly for it not to have been noticed. But still, a yes or no answer from a professional may well give you some certainties. And even if you do, social skills can be learnt. And people will become more tolerant of different as they enter the real world.