Crazy Loco Love: A Memoir.
want me to find a good quote from it? i can do that, in fact i like to do that. hold on let me see what's a good one, i was looking through my highlights earlier but nothing was really saying sharable to me. still nothing's saying that to me so i guess this will have to do, it's from the beginning but it's kind of saying what the whole book's going to be about.
i could've choked when i read this. i didn't, but i could've. the good thing was there was nothing in my mouth at the time so i didn't. but what made it worse was i was on the bus near to other people when i read it. really not the place to consider your own existence or to do any self examination. then you get self conscious and it's just weird. i was reading to lose my surroundings. but i couldn't help it, what it said there really got to me. and i was really not expecting it, like reading is for escapism and fun for me, i want to read about other people i want to lose myself in their lives or ideas. that's one criteria i use to pick the books i read, if i'm confident it's going to do that or not. but then wham, i almost choked on what i read. i mean it's not all bad, but it's kind of bad. but better late to read it than never? can i claim delayed adolescence and get a few more years to figure out who i am and who i am not that way. because i don't really think i did that yet. and i do think i had a delayed adolescence. does this really mean im missing the most important part of my whole self. that sounds completely awful but according to this it does and my time is up to find it. that was the thought that when i first had it, could've caused me to choke. it was just a stroke of luck that i wasn't chewing anything at the time or taking a sip of water. maybe that was an omen and i do deserve some extra time for this. i hope there's some workaround to it. for you guys too, who didn't figure this out in time like i didn't.This is a book about fathers and sons and how a boy of sixteen is told that he isn’t a boy anymore but on the verge of becoming un hombre, and to be a man one must go out into the world and live and learn and not be afraid of screwing up. Enjoy! Thank you, gracias, from my familia to your familia.
You are a man now, and to be un hombre, a man must not only know right from wrong, he must also know who he is and who he isn’t. Because if a man doesn’t know who he is and who he isn’t, then no matter how much he knows about right and wrong, he will always be like a fish out of water.
My mother, a woman, told me this, and I’ll tell you, mijo, that you will learn who you are and who you aren’t in the next four or five years, because not to learn who you are and who you aren’t in the next few years, my mother said, is to be missing the most important part of your whole life.