If I post about it, maybe I'll actually do it, sooo...here goes: today I went to bed on time so waking up at 5AM won't be so terrible.
If I post about it, maybe I'll actually do it, sooo...here goes: today I went to bed on time so waking up at 5AM won't be so terrible.
I watched the Heritage Classic. We lost (to my B team) but it's the first NHL game I've watched close to its entirety in probably ten months.
I enjoyed it. I miss the joy that watching hockey brought to my life.
Although the feeling of doing something is made somewhat bittersweet by the fact that I didn't have much of a choice in the matter, I finished cutting weeds in the backyard today. Took a while and my allergies were making it more difficult than it needed to be, but I got it done. Still have to bag up the debris, but at least I won't have to wave a string trimmer around again for a while. It would probably be wise to not let the weeds get so overgrown going forward to make the next time a little less shitty.
“Scratch any cynic and you will find a disappointed idealist.” — George Carlin
"If it's true that our species is alone in the universe, then I'd have to say the universe aimed rather low and settled for very little." — George Carlin
9 unreleased Michael Jackson tracks ended up in my hands. I love listening to this music, always great hearing unreleased MJ songs.
Salad and fruit and other healthy stuff. I ate that. I think there was even a bran muffin in there somewhere. Yep, I ate well today. We won't talk about the cake binge.
I managed to push out negative and anxious thoughts today. Since my last job, I have been afraid to say the wrong thing to the wrong person at my new job. My old supervisor really did a number on traumatizing me.
But today, I finally felt relaxed and not so anxious.
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
Ho.
Lee.
Fuck.
That was anxiety-inducing.
My phone-related anxieties need some work, but at least I was able to steady my voice for the barrage of questions I had no idea I was in for. My college wanted to know how prepared I am for my course in Sept. I'm terrified of all of this and have been pushing it out of my head for months, so most of my anxiety had nothing to do with the phone anyway, it was the subject matter. I am so sick of my heart pounding like that, but the shakiness and out-of-breath symptoms that result from said pounding heart can be hidden over the phone. I hope my voice didn't sound too shaky. I don't feel like it was that bad though.
Maybe it was.
It probably wasn't.
I did okay with that, I think.
Overall, after 2-3 days of emotional turmoil from being oversensitive and such, I feel a lot better now. I feel like myself again and thinking more rationally and positively.
I did well in my exam
I think I'm finally starting to work together (with myself)
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about