I kind of realize that I'm probably asking the wrong crowd and should ask a friend, if I had any, ha ha. I'm really shy and when someone I don't expect to talk to me actually attempts to possibly engage me in conversation. I'm not sure if they are seriously attempting to talk to me, because often it's like they have nothing to say? Generally, I am used to being alone and I'm comfortable in that role.
When I really need to ask someone something such as information I may need or vital information to pass on I can do this without a problem. I'm not bad even say with someone I see daily I can generally greet them and have some small talk.
Today at work I was assigned to work in a different department. There were three people here and we were mostly on our own, one had headphones on and we mostly just worked silently which I was cool with. One of the bosses came by and he said hello so I said good morning and kept right on working as I had nothing else to say. Another co-worker stopped and spoke with this person who I should add usually works in this department. He then went and spoke to the other person who warmly greeted him and blah blah blah.
I later heard him laughing with another managerial type at how strange I am...He did say Good Morning and I did say Good Morning back, as there was lots of work I kept working. He didn't say 'Stop and flatter my ego by smiling and blah blah blah!"
I must miss something? Like was the "Good Morning" the clue to stop and make chit chat. He's not my regular boss and I may have spoken to him like once in all the previous years I've worked here. You know what I think these knuckle heads because they are the bosses have gotten used to people sucking up to them. I'm actually think that I am better than they are at initiating a conversation. Plus, I worked too many factory jobs where all you did was focus on the work as it was too loud to talk much.
I feel like once again the social world eludes me. I kind of feel mad and depressed. Does anyone else have issues like this? I know that something I did or didn't do was wrong but what? Maybe I should have looked at him longer? Maybe I wasn't loud enough when I said Good Morning! Yet I think I said it loud enough. What the hell do other people want from me? I'm such a hopeless dork and that's not going to change any time soon.